We return with our regular programming... Okay... since this is the second time I'm doing this, I shall speed it up a bit...

Monday
After work, he headed down to meet Aini (Hi!!!! *waves*) and get some tanning vouchers from her, as well as have cousin bonding time... haha.

Tuesday
Went down to Orchard, and got my cousins' presents for their birthday. Went over to Cineleisure to register ourselves for the sessions, and then had dinner at the Hong Kong Cafe.

Wednesday
Messy and noisy family affair over at Bukit Batok, to celebrate my cousin's 21st birthday. Spent it eating pasta and playing Wii.

Thursday
Super packed day. I worked till 1, then met him at Storage Point, where we changed into blading appropriate gear, then hightailed it to get a bus to get to Pasir Ris. After meeting Aini and friend, we got lunch then started blading at Pasir Ris Park. I think I've improved. Heh. We bladed till 6 plus, then Theron and I had to rush off, back to the Storage Point to change again. Cabbed there so we could reach Clarke Quay in time. Reached Settlers and started playing Settlers with my uni orientation group friends. Apparently the popular numbers are 8 and 9. haha.

After that, one of my friends, Gerald, wanted to see the circus, so we headed into the crowd and pushed our way through. No circus, so we headed to Yello Jello to listen to er. retro music and have drinks. Even after the countdown, there was still no circus. :( just a bunch of people parading around beating drums and er.. dancing? We actually wanted to go into Yello Jello and dance, but my friends were carrying large and heavy precious goods, so that plan was shelved. We then headed home (thank God for night riders) although my dear reached home significantly later.. (sorry).

Friday
He had to visit his great grandparents and grandma in the morning (yes my dear and Aini, I'm purposely putting it that way :D) but still managed to make it down to see me. Thanks so much dear. :D Of course, the plan was to leave earlier, but he got conned (by me) to stay and help make pizza and later enjoy the pizza.

Felt like being antisocial, so we watched Burn Notice in my sister's room, while my littler cousins ran in and out looking for a good hiding place. Heh.

Saturday
Major house cleaning, coupled with unpleasantness made me want to get out of the house early. Well by the time I was done being vain, it wasn't all that early, but I met him nonetheless, and we headed to Dhoby Ghaut to check out a game. The search proved futile, so we made our way down to Holland V's Sushi Tei instead.

This was a primary school friend gathering, so the friends of mine that he met that day had been friends with me for at least a decade. Kinda scary eh. heh. After countless inside jokes, he warmed up and participated a bit.. and took pictures! :D Once the entire party had reached, we proceeded to order our dinner (me ordering the vulgar sounding dish).

After dinner, they decided to have dessert, and so we wandered to 2 am to have hot chocolate (on our part) and desserts that require exotic explanations. For those who didn't feel quite ready to leave just yet, we went to Wala's for drinks and conversations... ranging from relationships, friends, creepy stalker guys and grammatically challenged people.

All fun and games till we realised it was pretty late, so we took a cab home... he spent a couple hours on my couch in a bid to escape escalating cab fares. My aunt approved.

Sunday
He came over, and we headed to church together, then ran to a nearby bench to take a nap. While he was napping, I decided to write him a little note, (contents are private), a little summary of our time together. Apparently that made his day. Went to have lunch with my family, then Burn Notice occupied our time, as did Rock Band and the huge salad dinner.

And we're in 2010!

that strong desire @
12:03 PM


The Kim & Tim Story - Her Say :

My strongest impression of him was that he was the type of guy who would refuse to give up what he really treasures. There was a pretty massive project that he was working on at that time as a present to the Little Girl, which had enormous attention to detail... although that project was never completed, it gave me insight into his character, and I remember thinking (and probably saying it out loud) that any girl should be so lucky to have him.

Of course I didn't think I'd be the girl, but well, yes, I am very blessed to have him as a boyfriend.

You know all those chick flicks and romance novels and Disney movies that tell you that there is One Person for you, and all that crap? Well, after a certain age it became nice to think that such a person existed, but it was probably highly unlikely that the person would actually materialise. So I settled for the Potential One (you know, the guy that might be the one, if you can just iron out his kinks) and let's just say that was not a pretty experience.

So while I was figuring out the next step for me and the Potential One, I became friends with Theron, and strengthened our friendship over msn, smses and Boys Over Flowers. Heh. It took a while, but eventually I woke up and realised that I could do a lot better than the Potential One, because even though we were just friends, Theron was actually way more concerned and caring about my welfare than the Potential One, although the latter professed to still care for me. So, I dumped that dude, and continued being single and having a good friend.

To make a long story short, eventually we realised we liked each other, talked about it and decided to Proceed with Caution, because I didn't want to hurt him, and he didn't want to hurt me. Plus both of us were just coming out from messy relationships, so a rebound wasn't exactly ideal. Other factors were parents' disapproval, on my side. Let's just say that was a pretty sizable obstacle, that he managed to overcome with surprising ease.

Because we're both Christians, it was also important that we got the approval from the Big Guy Upstairs, since we really didn't want to do the breaking up thing again. So we waited, and an overwhelming avalanche of signs later, we're together.

I thank God every day for bringing us together. I love you my dearest.

that strong desire @
11:15 AM

The Best Thing that Happened to Me in 2009 Tim's side of the story.
My dearest is the best thing which happened to me. This year and the many years before started out terrible. I wasnt satisfied with the things the way they are, and I thought that I needed this girl. Which obviously it isn't His plan. Now that I had passed that phrase, its like, "Saul, Saul, why persecutest thou me? it is hard for thee to kick against the pricks." Acts 26:14. For I thought that because it was so hard to get, I must try harder. Work harder. No. That is not the case. Well, that story ended after splurging $2400+ and x amount of time on her. Damn. That's the cost of not listening. That's the cost for learning the lesson. And that's unfortunately the cost for me to treasure my love now. No, I don't regret meeting my ex. Yes, its terrible and all. But its no longer my concern now. So after being miracle-ly dropped into this suspiciously low paying job, I met her. As I'd remembered it started out cold, and somewhat weird. Of course during then, I was still trying to win some nonsensical-girl's love. Because I made a dumb promise, and because I made really stupid decisions. I decided to give her one last chance, (which by the way, is probably the 16th last chances). As some may have remembered, I dated her with VIP privileges to the Singapore flyer, had dinner at some higher end restaurant. Cooked and dine with her with candle-lights and whatnot. But no. Fail fail failed. After that finale, I broke down. "How can it be?.." I asked myself. "Why won't she see me." And because Kimberly was kind enough to hear me out. I took it upon myself to at least have a good friend first. Since all that I used to have, have all be destroyed from the effects and result of 'trying' to date that little girl. Didn't had any friends then, and Kim is my only one who could share with me. It was cute. The simple things could make her smile. My very character is an entertainment to her. Amidst my depression, I could benefit someone. She had a sorrow in her eyes. And just one fine night after work, I planned to find out what it was. It became very clear to me, that it was a relationship issue, most likely very similar to mine. Who would actually say so harshly "You are not the only one with emotional problems!", when I was whinning at work. Haha. Kim is amazing.
One night after work, feeling it was right, I decided to be random (benefits of not having any friends to meet) I sent her to her train station. It wasnt planned, and it actually turned out strangely in tune. There were little words exchanged, but we understood. I was grateful she appreciated my gesture to send her. This happened again, but this time, we talked, shared, and poured out the bad stuff first. We're angsty. And we spend sometime getting to know each other's taste at a VCD shop. Then we sort of dated. By the way, a little background info for the confused. I get employed with a $400 including cut from cpf. The lowest I ever got. Even part timing at the zoo was better. But I needed to exposure. I needed to learn skills from the industry, instead of going for courses with little or no similarity to that of actually working life. Its a life experience. (She thought I was cute when on my first day) Okay, back to sending her home. We started meeting regularly after work. Sending her to the train station. One day, I had the benefit of sending her all the way back to her gatehouse. =) Upgraded! Leveled up. Haha.
20th June, I wanted to date her. And brought her to ECP, rollerblading. After which, we met up with my mum, and I basically told my mum she was my girlfriend, without even asking Kim if she would agree. And 5mins into the talk and pass introduction, my mum called us a family. "Nevermind, all family already!"-quote. Haha. And again when we parted to go separate ways back home. I always send my love home, unless its tough for me, or that she commands me to go home first. (This happens when its the last bus, to her place, and to my place).
Anyway, due to some deadlines at work, we also stayed longer after working hours. Just alone, just the two of us. We were good. And we did our work fast. So fast, that we were practically watching shows most of the time. Which is what we do after office hours. Dinner is also affordable. I would say its healthy. Lettuce, salmons, bread, cheese and spreads; welcome our dinner! This happened for awhile, and during this period, I also started working for her dad. It too became obvious that we were somehow seeing each other.
It hit the fast forward button when her mum over looked and saw the messages I sent to her, and her dad suspecting. So, to save myself, I bailed out from the part time job. Didnt want to lie to her dad everyweek. Saying I'm off to somewhere, when I'm actually 'dating' his daughter. I feel bad la. One fine day, when its just the the both of us, (during this time, we were on quite steadily, and met up in the pantry when there's still people around) I got down on one and a half knee. (didnt want to scare her and do the one knee yet) I asked her to be my partially official girlfriend. We couldn't really be official becaused I promised her, that I would have to ask her parents before we could go to that stage. A month or three later, I asked her parents out to talk to them. It was classic. I bought white and red wine to compliment the mood. Anyway, the conclusion after the firing squad , Isnt exactly a yes, but more of a yeah, we'll see how you do. That was good enough. I wasnt even expecting anything close to that. (another long story which involved some pressure and disapproval) So that was on the 9th of September 2009. She became my official girlfriend. The parents has given us the nike-approval, but has the relatives? Or the friends given? Has her siblings too? Comments from her close friends matters to her, so I had to worked hard, to please. Being very careful, cleaning and straightening up my broken life. And after our combined hard work, one-by-one they fall and made us rise into acceptance. Leading up to this day. I love her more and more each day.
Every morning, she made it brighter.
She is the best thing which not only happened to me, but became part of my life.
And its now on, which I commited everything to her.

To my beloved, most treasured girlfriend. I love you, kimberly.

that strong desire @
12:19 AM

Astrological sign
Virgo (The Virgin) (mutable, earth, social): There is some debate in regards to a modern ruler of this sign with Chiron, Pallas, Vesta and Ceres often considered candidate by some modern astrologers, but the planet Mercury is typically used as the default by tradition pending a consensus among modern practitioners; but no one knows if or when this will be. The tropical duration of Virgo is August 23 to September 22.

Earth Signs (Taurus, Virgo, and Capricorn)-- The Earth signs show propriety. They are conventional, proper and fitting. They follow what is socially acceptable in conduct, behavior and speech. They have excellent manners and are very polite. They are prudent and have a deep regard for conventional rules of behavior. The Earth signs by nature are merchants. They are the storekeepers, barterers and traders. They are at their best when buying or selling material or tangible commodities. Most are very business oriented. The Earth signs have a physical nature. They have a characteristic love for the material, tangible things. They derive pleasure from sensory stimulation such as taste, smell and feel. They surround themselves with tangible items such as fine furniture, art, jewelry and most have a nice home that is expertly decorated. They have good taste in clothing and most are connoisseurs of food and drink. The Earth signs' emotions are aroused by sensory stimulation. Each of the five senses can produce an emotional response. Sight, sound, touch, smell and taste brings joy or depression. Nice surroundings, good music, the feel of quality materials, the smell and taste of good foods and financial security are the conditions required for an emotionally happy Earth sign. The Earth signs are normally not prone to physical violence, but as in any situation, there are exceptions. They are mildly revengeful. Their attitude is 'my time will come and they do hold a grudge. They will eventually get their revenge one way or another more often by hitting a person in his pocketbook. When angered, Earth signs, similar to the Fire and Air signs, are quick to express that anger verbally though most likely not physically unless as a last resort.


Aquarius (The Water Carrier) (fixed, air, universal): In astrology Aquarius is ruled by the planets Saturn and Uranus. The tropical duration of Aquarius is January 20 to February 19.

Air Signs (Gemini, Libra, and Aquarius)-- The Air signs possess the virtue of knowledge. This does not mean they are more intelligent than anyone else but are generally well rounded and informed. They are good communicators. Most have a good grasp of the language and generally know a little something about everything. They have good personalities and are easy to get to know. The Air signs are what the philosophers called seers or priests. These are mentally inclined people. They actively acquire knowledge through experience, education and association. In ancient times, the only educated people were either priests, royalty or those who took it upon themselves to acquire knowledge (seers). The Air signs are curious, have initiative, are original, generally are well-disciplined and are quick thinkers. The Air signs have a mental nature and are keen witted. They rationalize by thinking things out rather than being influenced by emotional or physical factors. They enjoy any type of entertainment where they can use their intellectual capacity and their ability to think quickly and accurately often gives them the upper hand. The emotional nature of the Air signs is directed toward self appraisal. These people have a tendency to judge themselves very harshly. They have certain standards they set for themselves such as hygiene, the way they dress, education, job performance and family. The Air signs are almost as ego-oriented as the Fire signs. Air signs resort to trickery. These people are crafty, under handed and ingenious when it comes to evil. They are also prone to physical violence. Whereas the Fire signs' anger is generally of the moment and soon after forgotten, the Air signs at their worst are mean. They carry a grudge, and like Fire signs, they are quick to express their opinion and are very opinionated. Aquarius and Libra are not as violent as Gemini. Gemini and mind altering drugs such as alcohol just do not mix. The Air signs will not hesitate one moment to express their anger verbally, but physical violence is not a first choice during that anger (the exception being Gemini who will act in an instant).

that strong desire @
2:41 PM

Update Update... My memory is like a sieve... yes, it's got holes in it. Well first of all, Merry Christmas to whoever reads this blog... :D

Okay... so Monday, we needed to buy groceries... so I hopped on the bus with my kfc burger and then went to Sembawang Shopping Centre to meet him (hmm... the memories...) and bought our supplies to make food for my family's Christmas party, (that he was invited to of course). Headed back to his place and proceeded to do some preliminary preparations before I decided to go home.

Woke up on Tuesday, with something important STILL missing from my home... the presents. I'd ordered it online but till this date it hadn't reached (apparently they had come to my home on the 15th, but we weren't home, so you know, they didn't bother to call or tell us that they had come... probably cos they think we didn't need it urgently. *GROWLS* Not even a letter saying we'd missed the delivery.) So I called VPOST, demanded to know what happened to them and then they told me that I had to go down to S'pore Post Centre to collect it. So that's where I was on Tuesday evening, hissing and spitting fireballs of fury at anyone who decided to place themselves between me and my package..I got it in the end, thank God. Theron decided to come down and see if he could calm me down, although this ended up to be unnecessary (give me my package and no one gets hurt). We had subway, then hightailed it home so we could rock band. Was pretty late when we got home though, so that plan was shelved.

Wednesday... Found out that I had to buy more presents on behalf of relatives...so we hightailed it to Tiong Bahru Plaza, pushed and shoved anyone who got in our way, and bought the presents (please note that I'm exaggerating.... I don't push, shove, hiss or spit fireballs of fury. That would be quite a feat) and then my mom had her first burger in a super long time. Angus Steakhouse burger's not bad... although there's only a slight difference in quality. never mind. We got home quickly thanks to my dad's chariot... Didn't meet him cos he was still in the office at that time, and it didn't seem necessary to bring reinforcements...heh.

Thursday! After the flurry of buying and wrapping presents, I was really looking forward to Christmas... probably cos this is the first year I'm spending it with someone truly special...so's he by the way. Anyway... ended work at 6 and flew down to Tiong Bahru to meet him... had Thai Express and then trained and bused down to church... for service. It was there when he finally met my older brother... who by some strange coincidence was dressed almost exactly like Theron! white shirt (his was short-sleeved, my dear's was long), vest, jeans, and white shoes. Hmmn. After church, we went back home,where we attacked the Rock Band system with gusto... drove my dearest home and made him open his present... heh. He was delighted with his present so that's great... (you thought the razor was his only present? C'mon) Got turned around on the way home, but made it within the hour so that's okay.

Friday, woke up early, dragged myself to his place so we could commence cooking for the party later on. It turned out pretty well, and we made it home on time and surprised my parents with yet another huge canvas... and my dad with a present... Guests started arriving a while later, and I alternated between stacking presents, running odd jobs and entertaining him. At one point of time, after dinner, we just sat on the floor and played cards with my cousins.. and then with my little cousin (who's about 3) which was an odd game of mimicking her actions and letting her win. Nonsense game. moved onto matching pictures... where my 5 year old nephew decided to join in on, but was later pulled away.

Presents time came next, in another flurry of activity, calling out people's names, handing them presents etc etc... We also each took turns to have a chat with my aunt, who couldn't be there with us, but joined us via skype... and then we just hung around until people decided to leave.

Saturday commenced with me waking up at 12. A luxury, I tell you. Had breakfast, and then cleaned the house with his help (he popped by) and then we spent the day watching Love Actually and Burn Notice... and eating leftovers... heh.

Sunday.... had to teach, so met him after the service and headed down to Vivo. Had Soup Spoon then went shopping for drinks and boarded the NEL for Sengkang. Fell asleep (him) and tried to sleep (me). Went to Compass Point and bought me shoes and then went over to his friend's house for a gathering... which ended up in me shooting him with a Nerf gun and anyone who got in the way of our fight.. There was also good food, :D, a bit of Xmen origins (Wolverine) and lots of Xbox games...

that strong desire @
11:32 AM

Recap.... The real entry is here... the other is probably a hint to me to keep up my updating duties...

Okay... so Monday he ran around running errands.... so we didn't meet that day. I had dinner with my parents and then went home. Heh.

Tuesday was a day of (boring) work, and then we headed down to City Hall. He had discovered a sale on dresses (1 for $28) and decided to bring me there to see if I wanted anything... I didn't, so we dined at the Thai Express next door to the shop and camwhored. Heh. He'd brought his DSLR so we took a bunch of pictures. We need to improve our skills though. Heh. The tom yum was good, but the service was kinda iffy. Never mind.

Wednesday we met at Bugis, where we wandered around the perimeter trying to decide what to eat. I told him I'd pay for him no matter what he decided to eat so...we ended up at KFC. Haha. Don't look at me. It wasn't my choice. It was a decision between 3 options and he chose that one. Heh. I went home to find Rock Band waiting for me... so after my initial efforts to try and play it, I decided on Thursday's itinerary,

which was to have dinner with my parents and then go home and play Rock Band. We discovered he's a bad singer... and a not so good drummer.... but he's pretty decent at guitaring!

Friday was our sixth partially official monthsary! I passed him his present the night before (which is sitting in the wrapping paper still) and he worked hard to finish his present to me... which was a pretty painting of tumultous waves. :D Its currently hanging up in my room now... Thanks dear... We hopped on the bus and travelled to Orchard.
It was part of our plan to stroll down Orchard Road basking in the lights...which admittedly aren't all that pretty but it's the experience of walking down the road with a loved one that really makes it better and more special. We got off the bus, wandered down the streets for like 5 minutes before deciding to visit the best decorated shopping mall - Forum... which is all the way down the other side... but at least there were less people there.


Had a very nice dinner at California Pizza Kitchen, which has this very Italian decor. Food was good too. :D We shared a Shrimp Scampi pizza and had dessert of Chocolate Banana (forgot the exact name) Cake, which was super rich. After that we wandered the streets and took pictures of the decorations... Made it to Wisma before we decided it was too late already and had to go home. Part 2 soon I guess.



After a fairly irritating bus ride, I made it home in like 30 minutes... Record time!!!

Saturday was car washing day, so we spent most of the daylight hours scrubbing, washing, polishing the car till it gleamed. Haha. We definitely felt VERY accomplished after cleaning the car. Then it was more Rock Band... where we created our own band and started going on the world tour. I can safely say he's got serious skills (as the Rock Band set proclaims) in guitaring... with me on drums. Heh. My brother came home and the three of us took turns to take over the world with our skills... got pretty far.. we can play impossible songs (with me on easy mode).

Had to teach at the kindergarten on Sunday. He popped over to his old church to arrange a gathering, and then we met at Bugis, where we went to Art Friend to get his favourite things - canvases. A quick lunch at Mc's later, we then headed to Marina Square to buy him some clothes. The mission was a clear success, so we took a long bus ride to his place...

An hour plus later, we arrived at his place, only to grab our rollerblades and get out again... Skated to this 'training ground' where I learned to Skate Like Theron. Haha. Had dinner at his place and entertained his nephew, watched Burn Notice and had fondue. :D

that strong desire @
11:15 AM

And we return for yet another update. which is yet to be written.

that strong desire @
12:46 PM

and we return for another update... Text by Kim
Photos by Theron

Heh. So Decorations... Okay so anyway... Monday started off as usual, slogging away in the office, when he told me that his mom invited us for dinner at Orchard. After initial hesitation on my part (I didn't want them to have to wait for me since I end work way way late), I met him, and we headed down to meet his mom and family, ie. his parents, sister-in-law and x1 and x2. Heh. After a bleah dinner at the kopitiam in between Orchard Plaza and Concorde Hotel, we wandered over to the Cathay to check out the sushi place for the parents' 25th anniversary. As we passed Plaza Singapura, his mom suddenly got the bright idea to let me carry Xandon (he's like 1 month old) and pose with Theron carrying Xander so we look like a (very young) family.


So I carefully carried Xandon (he was sleeping so wasn't that big a deal - was just scared that he'd bawl upon waking up and sensing an unfamiliar person) to The Cathay, whereupon he woke up and started whimpering. Upon passing him to Theron, the baby cried even more. Hmmmn. Haha. Eventually they changed him and he felt better I guess. We then chased Xander around the basement as he tried to escape from us and stole hugs from him (me).

Tuesday I worked for half a day and then popped down to NUH to visit my aunt, after which I met him at City Hall, where we had, yes, tom yum again. Because I'd eaten a bit at the hospital we just had soup. Oh, I also received a sunflower for our third official month together! :D it's currently embracing the sun on my balcony, although my mom thinks we should pot it.

On Wednesday, we went to work early. I was disoriented, kept thinking it was two hours later than it really was. Leaving work at 6 was good though. I messaged him, exclaiming that there was still DAYLIGHT! Walked from Far East all the way to Cathay, dodging trigger-happy (camera not gun) people and the crowds to meet his family at yes, the sushi place. I had rice splattered in my hair (thanks Xander) but it was more amusing than annoying. Dearest was stuck in a jam, (a very long one due to the types of people mentioned above) and was quite frustrated when he arrived. He was quickly placated by his favourite earl grey tea though. Heh. Oh and food. Apparently it's really a bad idea to piss off a hungry man. haha.


We didn't meet on Thursday. Instead I went for a family gathering at Singapore Swimmng Club. Had dinner and then bowled (yes the club has other sporting facilities than just a swimming pool) and basically socialised and caught up with my family. Still awaiting pictures for that.

Friday (finally) came and we decided to meet at Tiong Bahru Plaza... I think we will have to rethink any bus routes passing through Orchard now... massive jams everywhere. Growl. So we reworked the plan and met at Plaza Singapura instead to have calming tom yum ( I had a massive headache).

We put him to work on Saturday. Heh. He came over at the time when we were decorating the tree, so of course we asked him to help us. :D The tree looks good now... :D heh. After the house was clean, we headed down to Pasir Ris to meet his friends to go blading. He says I've improved. I sure hope so! After blading for a while, his friend Edna got the hang of it and could skate pretty well (yay!) even though she predicted falling a lot at the beginning ( i fell more than her lor) They had to leave at about 6 plus, so we skated back to the rental area, where we met Aini and her friend and continued blading until 7, where we packed up and headed for Manhattan Fish Market for dinner.

Sunday was Super Soaked yet Sunny Sunday. heh. Yes I love alliterations (I'm a writer what can I say) We met in church (thanks for choping the seats dear) and after that we were on our way to our favourite island. We first stopped by Giant to buy some supplies, and then took the Sentosa Express there, and trekked painfully (thanks to the rollerblading the previous day) to our spot, where we pitched our tent and lazed about, eating lunch and sleeping and occasionally wading in the sea. Then it started to drizzle, so we took refuge in the tent, which isn't really waterproof. Repeat several times and you get the idea of how our day went. The rain got really bad and the tent was soaked through (and smelling oily for some reason) so we salvaged our stuff and ran for the shelter.

When the rain abated for a bit, he went to survey the damage, telling me to use the swiss army knife on the bangla beside me if he disturbed me. I'm not sure how effective I would have been in such an instance, but well it didn't come to that. We then brought back all our stuff and laid it on the ground sheet that we brought and promptly fell asleep, waking up only at about 6 plus 7, where we then went to shower.

It got a bit depressing then, cos he took the tent and started harvesting it, taking all the essential parts and dumping the rest. :( I cleared our space of stuff and then headed for the shelter where we re-organised all our stuff. Then we went back to the main island and had a nice dinner of soup at The Soup Spoon and then took the bus all the way back to my place.

that strong desire @
10:59 AM

Recap... Monday.... we went.... (the multiple ellipses are there because I forgot what we did....) hmmmn.... Still drawing a blank on it.... Edited at 3pm... AH HAH! He wanted to have soup, so we headed down to Soup Spoon! After reaching Raffles City, I was enraptured by this pizza place that said that they have no service charge or GST (How rare. that's like 17% off already!) but their pizzas were a tad too small and pricey for our liking, so went opposite to The Soup Spoon. He apparently doesn't quite like the Tokyo Chicken Stew... that's the first thing we disagree on I think. :D (* His INSERT: "NO! I LIKE IT! haha. But it didnt go well with the nan." So.. there's nothing we disagree on yet! Hehe )

On the 1st day of December, Tuesday, I was having a craving for steamboat, so we headed down to Marina Square for dinner after I gave him his present. A razor, which Tiger Woods and Roger Federer promote. I figured if it was good enough for them, it had to be good enough for him! :D He later told me that it does a very good job of giving him a clean shave, and his chin hasn't looked so clean in a very very long time. Woots.


(That's his Christmas present anyway, so he better like it!)

We were all set to have a great dinner somewhere nearby on Wednesday, when God sent us a sign to stop spending money: He got a bird to poop on my dearest's head. Naturally, my darling was totally grossed out, tried to clean it up as much as possible and then had to endure the stuff till he met me and till we went back to my place to get it cleaned off. Thus, dining choices were limited to... cup noodles (not that we're complaining)

Left early on Thursday, and headed down to the Salvation Army near my place to watch the kids perform at his previous church's kids children church camp (His Insert:" What's with all the 'C's?" ). They were good, but I suppose to everyone the highlight was the councillors' performance. The narrator was awesome. :D And if you're reading this, I hope you're all right now after that collision. Had pretty good food (refreshments at the camp) and then took a short walk home. She stays near..

Friday didn't start off well. We had a pretty big cupcake and then took the next couple of hours to cool off. His peace offering? CRAB. Works for both of us like a charm. So we headed down to That Location and had the crab again. Good stuff!!! We walked around for a while then proceeded to take the bus back. It was pretty late already so I forced him to take a bus back rather than sending me all the way home and then taking a cab.

Saturday dawned bright and early. We met at ACRA only to be told that it was closed, and then later that the application couldn't be approved cos we don't own our own property... More details on the reason for this later, when our Top Secret Project kicks off properly. So a little discouraged and disheartened, we opted instead to go home after I got a cinammon apple muffin from Coffee Bean. We had lunch there and then washed the car, dried it and waxed it. We think it gleams brighter than the rest of the cars, but maybe it's just us. We then had dinner and watched Bend it Like Beckham and the end part of Twilight (hence the last post).

Sundays are always the highlights of the week, cos we end up going to distant parts of Singapore. We dragged our rollerblades to church and then to Pasir Ris Park, after a mediocre lunch at Botak Jones (please raise the standard thanks!). We then rollerbladed, fell (me) and slept on a bench (me) overlooking the sea (which is pretty to look at from far far away) with the breeze fanning us.

Afterwards, we rollerbladed back to the entrance (I can sorta stop now. Yay improvement.) and then took the bus back to Pasir Ris. His initial idea was to go Tampines for Ikea dinner, but on hindsight I decided it was better just to eat at Pasir Ris. We had dinner at Manhattan Fish Market and then took a train ride to Bugis and a bus from there.

It was about 9.30 when we reached Bugis so he had "no choice" but to send me home! *evil laughter*

We reached home and proceeded to watch the last bit of CSI: Las Vegas (I think - there was a desert there which seems to imply Nevada) and the last bit of Lilo and Stitch 2 - too emotional for kids!

that strong desire @
12:43 PM

10 Reasons Not to Date A Vampire So congratulations, you've been singled out as a potential mate for a vampire. Here's 10 reasons not to get caught up in his awe-inspiring beauty and instead run for the hills.

10) Awkward Family Gatherings.
"Hmm, how come you don't seem to age?" Oh not to mention how awkward it'd be to explain why some of the family suddenly went 'missing'.

9) Age Difference.
We're not talking about cradle-snatching here. This goes way way past that. They're like what 800 years old? So that makes any relationship instantly have at least 700 years difference. What ARE you guys going to have in common?

On the plus side, you can now tell people, "What? 10 years? That's nothing compared to me and my Eddykins..." Or not.

8) Reproduction.
Hmm. This could actually be a boon. Imagine you get to choose your own family! Just mark them and you've bought them...

But what I meant was actually having a kid with both yours and his (or yours and hers) imprints all over the kid. I imagine it'd be kinda hard to do that if you're 800 years old. Unless you're Sarah from the Bible. But then... that kinda puts a warp on the spirituality thing... never mind.

7) Never Being Able to Take Pictures.
If you're dating a normal vampire (see Lestat and Ann Rice; Bram Stoker and Dracula et al) well, that's just impossible. The privileges of camwhoring will never be open to both of you. And if he's like Edward... well, let's just say that a girl really doesn't want to be outshone (or outsparkled) by her significant other.

6) Dates are Severely Limited.
It's either 1) Dinner and a movie, 2) Dark places, 3) The forests, 4) Baseball at some gigantic park which you can't even take part in, 5) In some weird house, 6) Always breaking curfew.

5) Lack of Sleep.
Vampires are nocturnal creatures. That means any activities would most likely be taking place in a foggy foggy place like Forks (apparently) or at night.... like after curfew. (Unless you don't have one) Which would mean very little time to focus on what's important, like hmmn. homework or actual work.

4) Hazards to Your Beauty Regime.
Experts say to get enough sleep. I'm assuming at night. If you're dating a vampire, nuh-uh. Highly unlikely that this will happen. So thus your skin will look all saggy and you'll look like you're about 800 years old... only the one who actually IS 800 looks way better than you. Cos he doesn't need sleep.

3) You'll Never Look At Blood Transfusions The Same Way Again.
Not sure if this is a bad thing for those truly kinky, but I like my blood tranfusions nice and simple. No risk of me dying because of extreme loss of blood (because someone liked how I tasted) when the removal or donation of blood was supposed to save me.

2) You'll Have Enemies.
And they aren't bitchy high school girls or colleagues either. Nope, they're full-grown vampires who will bare their fangs and show their claws, and your relationship with said vampire will always cause near-death situations. Till you become one of them. Then every day is an adventure. Kinda like Final Fantasy missions but... more real and scary.

1) Dude, he's EMO.
Or if not, he's seriously got problems. (see: Undead, Constant Urge to Suck Your Blood, Enemies) If you thought dating a bad boy was challenging, wait till you date a vampire. He's broody, has a love-hate relationship with you (he hates that he loves to suck your blood) and oh. he's got tons of enemies lying in wait.

Really not the best choice for a fairytale wedding folks. Although he'd probably have the castle ready and waiting...

that strong desire @
12:59 AM

In Retrospect....

Hmmn. Let me refresh my memory again with the things that we did. Tends to escape me.

Monday was spent at Beppu Ramen after work again, at Tiong Bahru. Seems I have effectively converted him. Good!

Tuesday, if I'm not wrong, we didn't meet. But... he came over with chicken soup from The Soup Spoon! my favourite!!! (Tokyo Chicken Stew)

We decided to have a cheap dinner on Wednesday. Was supposed to be instant noodles, but we ended up having the black pepper chicken set. Wasn't too bad actually. :D

Thursday we had Thai Express again, the steamboat version, which is only available in Marina and Serangoon outlets... as far as we know. Don't know why this is though. Weird service. *Shakes head*
Friday was a very special day for a little boy, who's one month and 3 days old! Yup, his second nephew turned one month on that day, so after breakfast and swimming we headed down to his house. :D His older brother literally couldn't be bothered with the proceedings, and slept for about an hour plus with all the party noises surrounding him. Heh.

We then boarded the buses to Ubi for the Movie Warehouse Sale, and was almost too late. Luckily there were still a bunch of people inside, so we swooped down on a couple of DVDs and made our purchases.

Dinner was a great dinner of crab! Now I'm craving it too. :( It was smaller than expected, but really good! :D

Saturday we didn't meet. :( He spent the whole time leveling up his characters in Final Fantasy! (NOT FAIR!) and I went for dinner with my JC friends. Haha.

Sunday's already been described in brief... We went to church, and I left him all alone cos I had to teach, then we headed down to Thai Accent for some awesome Tom Yum, then went to buy presents for Christmas. That's where we met...Stitch! Haha. He says we got the cuter one (I didn't even look, I just grabbed the first) compared to some of the other Stitches around. Heh. Good job.

We then travelled to Orchard, where I was meeting my primary school friends. Was late, but we managed to have a great catch-up session anyway. They were very amused by Stitch, sitting in my seat and looking like he asked my friends out for tea. Haha.

They had plans, so I went to Mc's to meet my dearest, who had been patiently waiting for me (while levelling up) with Stitch in tow. We went around looking for phones (the CORBY!) and then had a 'cheap' dinner of Yoshinoya, where the above picture was taken. We then hopped on the bus back to my house and watched Helen the Fox, which apparently says that you have no soul if you didn't cry. Well, I definitely have a soul, and so did my dear, who apparently has mastered the art of 'sucking back tears'. Hmmmn.

Oh. The PSP is in my possession now... *diabolical laugh*

that strong desire @
11:31 AM


Yesterday was awesome!

In summary,

Church,
ThaiAccent!
Stitch..
Helen the baby fox.

that strong desire @
7:48 AM


Helen the baby Fox

Not so long ago, we (Of course, for the obvilious, refers to Me and Kim) went to this movie warehouse sale. Selling.. well, You GUESS it! Movies. Some titles which are low in demands are sold cheaper than the recent blockbusters/ features. Anyhow, one of the 5 movies we bought, is Helen the baby fox.



The story began in a little town somewhere in Japan. Potagonist, Taichi (Arashi Fukasawa), is a young social outcast in school. It was amusing to see and comprehend the affiliation that this young boy has with his surrounding. Having the 'new-kid-in-town' status, he stood out from the rest, having taught differently, he made his stand clear when he stood to his decision further in the story.
Taichi has imaginations beyond his peers; abstract illusions. Seeing things differently, he was continuously made fun of. It was then the story unfolds.
Basically, here is the introduction of the story and how it would probably lay out as we watch. Here is a boy, who would probably need a friend. For because he is unable to find comfort in his class or school, the source must be loacted outside. Obviously, having the title 'Helen the baby fox' it would be expected to see him, 'bum' into this fox. It was later portraited that a fox was seen by the roadside. However, as a veterinarian (Takao Osawa) and his daughter (Ryoko Kobayashi) drove past, talking about financial issues, about selling off their oldest pet, isolated the idea that these are people partially struggling to make a living. A realisation would hit any audience, when the vet's daughter mentioned that, when they drove past the fox, it did not move. This stirred curiousity as it appears that the veterinarian attempted to conjure up an excuse, in order to make a lifelihood, instead of letting his soft heart take over.
As I was saying, Taichi soon met this fox, and developed a relation in which he could relate to this similar situation with himself. Being leftaside. Abandoned. And repeatedly, during the show he placed himself into the fox's place, yearning for his mother. His mother who often left the boy alone for most times, to pursit her photography profession. -Theron

Convincing the vet to allow Helen the baby fox to stay and receive treatment, Taichi works on the farm to pay off his dues. And thus began a friendship amongst the clinic, and with the many other adorable animals living on the clinic grounds. The movie seemed to have two contrasting facades, and employed different techniques to highlight the different phases, as the relationship between animal and boy strengthened. The imaginary world from Taichi's mind, enhanced by special effects, gets transitioned (and conveniently forgotten) as the story moved towards a more serious "real-world" and the issues at hand with regards to the fox. Things change as the boy becomes more assertive and responsible as he takes on the surrogate guardian role, and the fox, being given a new lease of life from one without hope. -Dick Steel


Basically at the near end of the show, this is a heartwrenching one. If you think it would be another one of those similar to '10 promises to my dog' or 'quill'; I wouldn't say that they are bad, infact they each hold a very touching storyline, complimenting the skills and talents the production team has in pushing the right buttons. 4 out of 5, compared to a solid 5 over 5 for Quill. They are both good, yet, I personally preferred Quill. Never did forget it.


"he took the role of Anne Sullivan"

that strong desire @
12:07 AM

CRAB! In short.
I had my first crab with my love. Totally awesome.
Well, basically it was beyond any expectations.
Firstly, I don't always have crab.
Secondly, I never had it with anyothers except family.
Third, this was my first 'steamed' crab, instead of chilli's
ONE more thing which adds into the list.
Our comfort food list.. Hehe


The long story.
Today, Xandon is celebrating his one month's life achievement. He made it this far! A round of applause! Knowing so, I was awoken by my dearest at roughly 7:30 in the morning. Of course, as i had instructed her to do so the night before. Anyway, I got out of my place at 8, and reached her's at 9 plus. Buying a little breakfast on the way. We swam in the morning.. Or at least i tried to swim. Fine, i know she'll probably give me 'the look' which says "just tell the truth la". So yes. I waddled in the pools. Then we went to tan under the blazing sun. Although only awhile, it was a significant tan. We showered and got ready to 'show-face' for the celebration. Basically, just be there for the meet-and-greet with the elders. Around 3.30pm, we took off as the party gradually disbanded, leaving only my brother's friends. So they cleaned up! We took leave to Ubi Ave 2. For some event which I am unable to disclose here. (hehe.. Secretly secretly..) Reached the place at 6pm, dragged till near 7pm. And headed down to have our Crab! At this nice-rushed environment, doesn't even feel like Singapore. Its back alleys.We took our time, removing the necessaries. Anyway. we failed to see most of our secondary objective. Not that I'm superbly eager to stare.. But its an eye-opener. An experience which has danger, fear, excitement, selective emotions all mixed up and in play.
We took a direct bus back to her place where I spend sometime watching some recordings.
And went home.
Here's the end of this wonderful day. Which had the crab as our highlight. I feel GREAT. =)
Thank you love.

that strong desire @
12:13 AM

I love my girlfriend. All these months that has gone by. We tend to take for granted the small things, like the kind messages, notes, or gestures. Things which used to be So big, are causally taken. Of course, I still appreciate every single small thing. She is like a dream which made her presence into reality. My dream, in my reality. It doesn't get any more real, it doesn't get any more fake. I am her's. And she's my world. No doubt we used to be alone and afraid of the journey which we of sorts failed to imagine, till now. We have us. Together, I don't see 'not-happening'. I stop seeing, 'alone'. I am attached. And more than that, I am happily embracing the romance which burns and grows ever steadily. What can I do without her around? I may not want to go on, if I had to lose her. I still can live, of course. But its torturous and somewhat unbearable. It pains me to think that there isn't a future. Then again, this ill side would not take place as long as we're in control. The happy times, the grouchy times, and mundane moments, and the exciting activities. I treasure all of them. As I had promised her.
I cherish the treasure. She is my treasure. And I cherish her.

Love you dearest.

that strong desire @
3:22 PM


Pride and Glory.

I just sit there
And let the thoughts flood
And I remind myself, "It's all right, it's all good, it's all love"
It's not though
Cause there's a kink in the armor
A pot hole I'm sinking in
While I think of the drama
So I stand up
Start to pace in my living room
Set my eye to the highway knowing that I'll play chicken soon
There's a vanity plate with my name on it
There's a Davey Crockett hat with a Masonic fat cat under it
A musket rifle spitting at my feet
They want me to dance in the middle of the street
And I respect my elders, so I do as I'm told
But I offset the bell curve when I do it with soul
Losing control
Guilty feet do have rhythm
They just dance to the wrong theme music to amuse the villain
Instead of killing, I'll spare the raccoon
And start filling sandbags as I stare at the moon and let the thoughts flood
Blessed are those who are dammed
When the levee broke
How many choked on the steps to a slow dance?
A staircase to a hug with no hands
Accountability hung out to dry on the line of command
We let the thoughts flood
We remind ourselves "It's all right, it's all good, it's all love"
It's not though
Cause there's a kink in the armor
A pot hole I'm sinking in
Sharing a drink with my father
It's a family affair
The vanity we share
The waterline is rising
All we do is stand there

that strong desire @
12:57 AM

tired.. and sleepy

that strong desire @
1:36 PM

Making Up for Lost Time... Monday dawned bright and early. It was one of the few times I actually got to hear our National Anthem being played on air in a very very long while. (Hmmm, probably the second time ever) We hadn't slept anyway so the two days merged into a blur and just became this continuous stretch of time that we were racing against.

After repeated reminders of the time check, we packed all the stuff into a suitcase, and brought out all the stuff to the lift and then promptly hopped into a cab, which took forever to get to Lasalle. Well, at least we made it with time to spare. We made our way to the 'presentation room' (I don't know what to call it, so this will suffice) and set up the artwork on the table allocated to him.

Briefly met a few of his friends, while busily trying to organise the files and stuff. Then he went for a debrief while I sat on the grass patch and drifted between states of nausea, sleepiness and hunger and observed some of his peers. I shan't say who caught my attention... but I think it went along the lines of "Hellooooo! I'm SPEAKING HERE!"

It was then off to McDonald's for breakfast of hotcakes and tea, which revived me a little. Speaking of which, dear, put the tokens up on the game board and see what we won! Do it!

We then walked back to Lasalle and spent a few precious moments lying on the grass before we took an hour's bus ride to my workplace. It took so long we dozed and woke up several times.

Of course this made me a walking zombie at work. I tried my best to stay awake, and succeeded pretty much (except for some suspicious nodding activity). After work, I jetted down to Lasalle to help him carry his stuff back, though it was much much less than what we'd brought. Heh. Good job dear. :D Had dinner at the Kopitiam nearby, then boarded the bus to his house, and later he sent me home.

Tuesday was another day at work... then a quick dinner at KFC and he sent me back, and I promptly fell asleep at the bench downstairs.

Wednesday was the 18th, which marked our 5th month together. Somehow or another it seems like the months are speeding up now. It seemed so long before. We meant to spend it together, but work for him had different plans. We actually spent our monthsary in the office eating cup noodles. Haha. He was super apologetic about it although I didn't really mind.

My phone battery decided to give way on Thursday, hence I spent a while waiting for him at Raffles City without any contact whatsoever. Later I found he'd sent me two messages and probably called a bunch of times. Anyway, we met and then headed for our favourite destination, Thai Express. The soup was good as usual, with lemongrass and chilli garnished liberally. I think it might have muted the taste of the stock though. Not complaining. Also received a sunflower bouquet from him, and many envious stares, although it could have been the leather jackets that we were both sporting. (Singapore is that cold. It was raining!)

Friday I realised I made a mistake at work that would be quite costly (in terms of time spent) so he tried to cheer me up by offering me options of Soup Spoon, Aston's, Thai Express or Beppu. (I've converted him to like all of the options) It was decided that we should go to Aston's, so we headed down to Suntec to have a feast! Haha.

Saturday was housework day, and I very helpfully volunteered his services as a car washer. Haha. After cleaning the house, we headed downstairs and washed the car, with him splashing me every few minutes. Despite his best efforts I still remained dry (HA!) But that was to change in a few moments as I changed into a swimsuit and we plunged into the cold cold waters of the pool. Okay, I plunged, he cautiously made his way in. Ha. We moved around a couple of pools, and then it got way too cold with the wind blowing, so we rushed to warm ourselves in the sauna. Heh. We then headed upstairs to get a shower. The rest of the evening was spent puzzling over Money Talk. I will write new instructions for that soon man. Grr. Dinner was pizza, spent watching Dark Angel - the pilot episode (which I'd watched before, and he apparently watched 4 times) and then i discovered the joys of the PSP and final fantasy. Needless to say, the PSP spent a lot of time in my hands. Ha.

Yesterday we met at Vivo and then proceeded to buy dinner of Subway and FINALLY had good tom yum at Vivo Thai Express. You guys have finally redeemed yourselves. Bought drinks and then headed for Sentosa. Weather was sunny, but very very windy and the waters were very cold. Much of the time was spent either in the tent sleeping or outside, sleeping. Ha. Beach patrol came by and announced that we had to take down our tent by 7 (when he told us it WAS 7) and so we left it in a heap and went to bathe. Had dinner and he slept while I played with the PSP. Heh. Spent the ride home talking about games. :D

that strong desire @
12:38 PM

Long absence. My apologies for my long absence. To my dear fellow readers. And my dearest girlfriend. I'm Back blogging. Would probably try to blog every now and then in the office. Heh. If I can find the time to do it.
I was just reading up something. And a thought came to my mind.
What if we were unable to feel. Emotions and feelings are unavailable to us.
What if that this one person we like, yet unable to 'feel' for.
Wont it be sad and lonely to spend our entire life alone?
Are we able to do that?
Its so painful..

Now. Back to my previous topic. My assessments are now behind me. One of each subject was selected for exhibition. I'm probably the only one who had that privillage. Well. All thanks to my patient, forgiving, loving, caring, gentle-at-times, assuring, and most wonderful girlfriend. She's the BEST of all times! OF all times! Okay.. Anyway. Now I'm back immediately to work hard. Got many depts to pay off. Aye.. Well. My pay is low. How like that? Dont eat lo....

that strong desire @
2:18 AM

I'm a gangster ... and a bully.

I'm probably the only one who can stand up to him when he gets grouchy. Heh.

So this week was chionging for the last stretch..which was this morning...But we still made time for shiok Japanese ramen noodles on Monday to celebrate our monthsary! Yay. :D

The plan was for us not to meet, but it turned out that my presence was necessary to keep him sane. Although the same can't be said for me. I haven't slept a wink in 26 hours. (Okay, excluding the nap on the bus and a bit on the cab) and thanks to the tea I'm jazzed up now, with memory lapse. Haha.

Hmmn. Okay. I met him on Wednesday, made it down to his house to help him out a bit with research. Thanks to my parents, I didn't pay for transport since they let me have the car. :D

Friday he popped by for a while, after asking me if I wanted to see him. Silly question! Haha. Well he waited for me till I ended work and then we took a bus home and had a cup noodle dinner. Haha.

After cleaning the house on Saturday, I went over to his house, where he welcomed me with open arms. :D Heh. (Sorry, in a mix of high and sleeplessness) Helped him out a bit with some work, and then took a bus home.

Sunday, repeat Saturday's events minus the house cleaning and add church. There was still a lot of things to do about 12 hours ago, and thus I volunteered to stay over and help. Probably a good idea.

Well it's over now. He's probably sleeping on the bus now, relieved it's all over, and probably berating himself for the bits not done. Oh well. It's in God's hands now. :D

Love you dearest.

that strong desire @
11:30 AM

Hmm.. just opened a facebook account. Mann. dont like it. Its been more than a year since I've been on a social networking site. anyway.
Between me and my dearest. Something is definitely certain.
Like black and white. No grey areas.
I love her.

that strong desire @
3:15 AM

getting there...

that strong desire @
10:59 PM

And we're back... Another update on the week... here goes. In summary, well, it was two weeks to assessment, so we didn't meet much. Well, not as much as we usually do.

Monday and Wednesday was spent dining with my parents. This usually means the nearby hawker centre fare, usually zi char with beef, sotong, stingray, vegetables and rice, and while my dad's nursing his drink, I usually run off and give him a call. Haha. Then I drive back home...

Tuesday was a rather special day for him. He has a second nephew now!!! Yay!!! Went down after work to go take a look at the new arrival, heh. Then we went to 'celebrate' with prata at Thomson.

Thursday I went to the airport with my family to send an aunt and their family off to Australia...yes, it's just a short vacation... but we do that sometimes. Quite often actually. Dinner was at Swensen's... and I'm swearing off black pepper for a while.

Friday was my aunt's birthday (yes I have many many aunts) and so we went to Jack's Place for dinner. Meh. Not impressed. Still craving steak. Oh... the highlight of the day was him texting me and asking for a hug, to which I jokingly replied, "you come over and I'll give you a hug". And of course, he did. He came to my office, armed with food, and got his hug(s). Thanks love for coming down.

Saturday I had the runs. We were supposed to go art material shopping though, so he came over, had breakfast with me and my mom, and then we went to Bugis... first to get his name changed (which apparently startled the teller into mumbling some gibberish about needing a lawyer letter - failure) and then to buy art supplies. Two large canvases and other items later, we went to Iluma to get our Thai Express fix, cos we were hungry. The tom yum's not bad... I wonder if we're getting some special treatment or something, cos the managers keep popping over to talk to us. Anyway...after that we went to my home and while I cleaned house, he drew on his sketchbook.

After the interior was done, it was time to go downstairs to wash the car. We stayed surprisingly dry, even though I'd warned him that it was impossible to stay dry. Perhaps we didn't splash the car enough. I showered and then we headed to his house so he could do work and learned how to do (bad) charcoal figure drawing. Bad on my part.

Sunday, went to church, then to Raffles City for more tom yum... Awesomeness. We agreed it's probably close to Thai Accent's. Heh. Oh and we were treated like VIPs. Woots.

We popped by Watson's to get some necessities, and bought an eyeshadow for $20. Imagine my surprise when the cashier put in another for free! WHeeee!!! Happy!

Then came the long long ride back to Sembawang, followed by him doing work and me entertaining myself by playing games, watching Some Like it Hot and playing with Xander and talking to his mom. More of the first and second though.

And now it's our second official month! Yay!!!! Happy monthsary love!!!

that strong desire @
11:14 AM

midnight charcoal

fidgeting now...
my heart is not doing well to all these late night.
Damn. Argh.. My hand starts to shake.
I might not every take caffeine from now..

that strong desire @
2:42 AM

This week in retrospect... Cleaning up bad design is hard work. That's what he spent most of the week doing, while also worrying about his assignment due on Friday.

So on Monday, he was in the office again, and I popped by to keep him company. He graciously paid for our dinner at 'our' coffeeshop and then sent me home.

On Tuesday, we went to Woodlands to have Gelare, to have a little quality time before everything gets hectic for him. We had 3 waffles between the two of us, while observing the couple next to us...hmmm. More chemistry needed!

Wednesday, I popped by office again, and gave him his nutritional supplements - Subway dinner, plus green tea plus coffee and then waited for him to pack up and then he sent me home. (He was feeling bad, something "new and unusual for (him)"- watch Music and Lyrics if you didn't get the reference)

Thursday... we didn't meet... good for the wallet, but not in any other sense. Haha. Woke him up like 3 times just to talk to him, to which he groggily sleep-replied and now claims to have no memory of the conversations.

Friday we went to Suntec so I could drop my check (YAY! payday!) and then had a quick dinner at Subway again (I think we should have shares) before heading off to our final destination - the airport! Yup, it was time for us to 'study' at the airport. It's in quotation marks because drawing really fine lines does not equate to studying, but nevertheless is more taxing than regular studying (because it has to be perfect) and I was just playing games on my laptop before falling asleep on the very comfortable seat at Mac's.

Saturday morning dawned bright and early, and we took a bus all the way to Woodlands. We like the express bus! It literally goes on several expressways before stopping at Woodlands. New way to get back home! We then went our separate ways, he to his home and me to mine, where we promptly slept for a few hours (me) and an hour plus (him) before he went down (again) to the office. We'd planned to meet, but this was eventually cancelled in favour of getting everything done so that we could have Sunday together, "48 hours with no interruptions" (Grey's), (although it was more like 12 hours). I ended up watching chick flicks. Pretty decent way to spend a Saturday.

Sunday, met him after church at Harbourfront and then had Subway again. (See? Shares, people, shares!) After lunch, we went to Sentosa, pitched a tent, swam, tanned and slept. Then we hopped on a tram and a bus to get to the other side of Sentosa to get our Ben and Jerry's. Yay. Strawberry cheesecake all for me! After snacking on seaweed and Mamee, and showering outdoors, we went back to Thai Express, where I wanted to see if there were any improvements to the tom yum. They said they ran out. *gives skeptical look* So we shared olive rice instead and then hopped on 963 to go home. Despite professing to be sleepy, we chatted all the way home.

And yes, WHY are you eating my pancakes ONLY now?

that strong desire @
11:22 AM

YAY!
I'm going to start my morning good with pancakes from my dearest! Whee..
She'll probably kill me after reading this post. Thinking why I didnt eat it till now.
Hehe

that strong desire @
6:19 AM

Assessments and projects.
Aye.. And now i'm insomniac. again.

that strong desire @
3:47 AM

I just have to say this: Thanks dearest for showing up at my doorstep this morning.

He stayed up the whole night last night to do his assignment, so as I normally do in the mornings when I know he'll be up, I called him when I woke up. There was some background noise, but I just assumed it was the static, and it's usually staticky even when he's home. Then I heard a woman talking loudly in the background ( I assumed that was his mom) and his hurried footsteps.

So I asked him where he was, and he said he didn't know. Which is totally unlike him, he hardly gets lost. And then he said that he was under my block. After a lot of disbelieving remarks on my part, I got out of bed, made myself presentable and went down to meet him.

He brought breakfast of hotcakes!!! And tea and a hashbrown (which I nearly threw away). Wanted to upload a picture but 1) we didn't take one, 2) there are no 'real' pictures online. Anyway, you all know how it looks like.

I think mine are better. These were off-colour. Too pale too pale.

While waiting for my household to wake up, I had my breakfast while he loaded up on coffee and continued drawing the picture in his last post. Then he chatted with my mom while I went to get ready for work, and had a lift to my office where he can take a bus.

A very good morning indeed. :D Thanks dear.

that strong desire @
12:35 PM

I'm backk... Here's a question for you: What do girls want more than big bouquets of flowers and over-the-top gestures?

The small things. A constant flow of "I love you" and "I miss you" messages, and calls 'just cause you felt like it' do more than heavy bouquets of flowers with circumferences 4 times your girlfriend's head. I'm not saying that 99 roses are bad, but rather that constant communication is more important than that. (And healthier for your wallet too). Plus, it takes very little time to send such a message. Win-win situation for everyone.

In that respect, he scores A* every time. :D Love you dearest. Off to work now.

that strong desire @
9:55 AM


I..& her.. =)

that strong desire @
3:29 AM

In this week that has just passed... Monday - Our make-up monthsary dinner.Had it at Raffles City Thai Express, and we were STUFFED with rice and soup. (We suspect it was the excess liquid that bloated us up)
Tuesday - Didn't meet. He had to do work, so I had dinner with my parents.
Wednesday and Thursday - Went to Balestier to meet him and have dinner with him, since he was working late and deadlines were looming.
Friday - Went shopping at Orchard, Paragon to be exact, to buy my cousin's birthday presents. Dinner was Tori Q! :D
Saturday - Spent the first third of it doing housework, having lunch and then went to meet him at office again. He then sent me to my cousin's birthday party.
Sunday! - Went to Ubin! Bumboat rips us off! Then to Ikea for dinner! :D and planning. :D

Okay, that's in summary, cos I'm too lazy to go into detail. Haha.
-Kim

Why Monday?
Well, Because Sunday we had to hand out flyers, we didnt had the chance to celebrate one of our traditional monthsary. And to make up for that, we expressed it out on the following day. After school, I had the privillage to go home, and prepare a little gift for my beloved. In which, I gave her upon meeting at redhill. Of course, I got her a flower, as I've promised every month. The day slowly come to the end, as we parted from Rafflescity and siti from Thai Express bowls of TomYum soup, 2 plate of rice, loads of water, and a mangoblend.

On Tuesday, I had to stay home to finish the heap of homework that I'm supposed to have done like who-knows-when. But of course, I'm way over my deadline. Anyway, the day went by too slowly for my liking. It was always very dreamy and fast when I'm with her. And for the most fact, I'm with her almost everyday, so yes, I'm not used, not being with her. Tuesday was sucky... =(

And then Wednesday and Thursday came, went over to Balestier Office to tied up loose ends. Some joker left a pile of disorganised work there, and I had to come clean it. Was very pissed these two days. Senseless design. Dumb layout. So sorry that my love had to see all that, and even wait for me to have dinner, especially when she's like super hungry already. Sorry love.

Friday! I'm happy! I love friday! Ripped a song of on that before. Heh.

I Don't care if Monday's Blue
Tuesday's grey and Wednesday too
Thursday, I don't care about you
It's Friday, I'm in love

Monday, you can fall apart
Tuesday, Wednesday, break my heart
Thursday doesn't even start
It's Friday, I'm in love, ohh

Heh and so we made our way down to Orchard to get her little cousin a little something.. Haha We make good parents!! YAY!

Saturday started out in the office, then the party at the S'pore Swimming Club... and... hmm... went back to the office till late. My beloved came back to the office twice in the same day. Hehe.

Sunday... UBIN!! Eh... where's our organiser?!

that strong desire @
11:18 AM


late one night in the office..

Empty bustops, where are your patrons?
A time in many, now when shall it forgets me.
Moments passing life assuring, one or another.
Empty bustops, don't forget me.

Empty bustop now I sat upon cold steel.
Where are your patrons whom could not sit still?
Last at night I will wait for you,
Empty bus stop, soon arrived, the time I must choose.

that strong desire @
1:05 AM

Come oh ye inspiration.




I feel the inspiration to type today. Strange. It comes randomly. Okay.

In most recent days, I have been attempting to erase all my past, be it good or bad. I know this sound harsh. I want to hit the refresh button, and I'm very much serious about it. Apparently I lose the joy of nostalgia. Meaning real passed stuff. Just going through the motions. I leave people behind. And if that means I don't get to see them ever again, so be it. Of course there will be a special few, which I would probably mention to my dearest about, other than them, I apologise in advance. Forgive me. If you didnt make it, you didnt make it.
So I've heard that the exams are coming. Or rather it has already began. Could I care any less? I am having mine almost everyday. Don't give me nonsense about whether where I am studying is a negative place. Its not. The amount of work that I have to complete, is probably incomprehendble. How I wish to take time out, take a break, without even thinking about school for a second. Those that had never been through this will never know. For those who are going through, I bid you good luck, and for the honorable has-been, I respect you. Of course, I still have events and things on the sideline. Which doesn't permit me in anyway, take a kitkat. My girlfriend and I had a little chat not so long ago. It was probably about friends. Who are my friends? I couldn't even exceed the number of fingers in one hand. Huh. This is harsher than I wanted it to be. Then one fine day, at my funeral, who is going to be there? My girlfriend would most probably be there. My family.. and extremely close relatives. And.. I think that's about it. You see my point? I come and go. Maybe this is the down side of being just an invisible entity. My room is in a mess, I have art sketch books pilling up like nobody's business, A2 size paper and boards spreaded across the floor. Cutting mat is filled with the remains of paper cutouts. Newspaper section for fixative and spraymount. And of course I have my easel. Everyday, I stay up late into the night, anytime before 5am I would still be awake. If I can manage, I would attempt to sleep for awhile. This has been going on for months now. Can anyone imagine.. It is NO longer any fun to 'ton' the night. It isnt any fun to stay up late. Seriously.. Whenever I spent time with my girlfriend, I am either trying very hard to stay awake, or just conciously blocking out the urgency to finish the work. Uni is though.. But, I am really considered blessed to have my beloved supporting me, in anyway and everyway she could. She didnt complained much about my messy messy room. She even took the trouble to take care of me, in my frequent collaspe and fatigue, and the best of all, she's there when I'm most underserving. Currently I have 8 sketchbooks, 2 of which are almost completed. These are master pieces. Fully drawn and detailed. Its really tough to be an A student.. And its perfectly normal to only have 2-4 hours of sleep only. The circle repeats till the end of the week. Usually on saturday, you will breakdown. You would probably shun art, and try, you hardest NOT to think about it. But you can't, it runs in your blood. I'm getting thinner as the days goes by.. Oh.. what's that art theory book that we need to study on? which one is it? the 23rd one?

SO, if I TEND to be OVERLY MUSHY on my blog, hold your freaking tongue.
I earned the right to express myself in words other than in expressions.


I love my love love. =D

On my weekends, I take up cooking, tenting, blading, tanning, swimming, frisbee-ing, flyer-giving... IT IS JUST MY DAY OFF! SO let me be.

that strong desire @
3:12 AM

Last Saturday. 17th Oct

that strong desire @
4:29 PM

Weekly recap (13/10 - 18/10) I'm baaack.... With another recap of the week. Believe me, it's not as easy as I make it seem. Yesterday the two of us were sitting at Yoshinoya and while slotting flyers (more about that later) we were both trying to recall the events of the week. It's all a blur after a while I swear.

So, last week wasn't a good week. We kinda racked up a lot of sleep debt. At least he did. I slept enough I think, but was still tired. Ha.

Great... I've just forgotten the events again.

Monday we went to Orchard, so I could wish my friend a happy birthday. Haha. We ended up having dinner at KFC in Cine, where we both felt old.

Tuesday was spent at Thai Express in Esplanade after a dizzy spell due to the lack of food. Don't ask.

Wednesday we sampled the food at Bukit Merah and nursed killer headaches.

Thursday was a bad day all around. Thank God he was there with me. He made it bearable. Thanks love. So after this all round bad day, which culminated in me feeling super sick, we went to Soup Spoon for comfort food at Raffles City.

Friday I took sick leave and stayed at home. He came to visit with homemade soup (had the cold version the day before) and we had dinner and watched BoF. Thank you dear for taking care of me and cooking for me and losing sleep over it. :D

Saturday and Sunday were spent giving out flyers. We first hit United Square, but were discouraged by the lack of response, so we headed to Orchard, which was slightly better. We finished off in Toa Payoh. Managed to give out 3k flyers! I'm impressed with us! Sunday was slightly worse, where we gave out about 2.5k flyers in Woodlands. We walked 7.6km!

Oh Sunday was also our monthsary. Wasn't how I expected to spend our monthsary but well, we're a random couple. :D Happy 4 months love!

that strong desire @
11:49 AM

Weekly Recap... again. So I'm back for another weekly recap. Heh. Hmmn.

Monday we went to Raffles City for tom yum, because we were totally unsatisfied with the tom yum in Vivo and he insisted that we had to rid ourselves of the bad memories there. So we plopped ourselves down and ordered two bowls of "awesomeness" (my word not his). It was really really good after the nonsense at Vivo. Oh and the manager remembers us. Heh.

Tuesday was the bible class. Learning quite a bit. He sent me home, despite being half-dead.

Wednesday we decided to troop down to Marina Square for more tom yum goodness. Thursday was a day of cabbing; he came to meet me and then we cabbed down to his place, had dinner and watched a bit of Grey's... and then surprised his mom with the smallest triangle cake ever. Haha.

Friday we spent separately, he with his Sakae Sushi, and me with Sizzler's. Good, filling but rather ex. Heh. But well it was to celebrate my brother's birthday. :D

Saturday was spent house-cleaning as usual and then rushed down to Rail Mall and Clementi to get two very important items. Then cabbed down to his place with a headache starting. It was worth it though, cos his mom was VERY happy that he threw a surprise party for her. (She celebrated her birthday 3 days in a row!) He sent me home again despite him not having slept the night before (a dose of inspiration struck him and he HAD to paint) Thanks dear.

Yesterday's mission was to celebrate our monthsary, albeit two days late. So we headed down to Sentosa, after lunch at Subway, and got roasted in the sun. We're now several shades darker! Yay! Because of the heat, we spent most of the time in the sea, making fun of people. Heh. We then showered at the outdoor shower, and packed up our tent and walked all the way to Siloso just to find out that the outlet was closed. Why close so early? We then hopped on the bus back to the Beach Station and after getting our pretty tumblers, we went back to Harbourfront and had the best tom yum in a while. :D Thai Accent!!! :D Oh we also ate 5 bowls of rice each and made Ks with our rice. My idea, and then we decided to compete for it. The staff thought we were nuts.



Went home, and got headbutted by my dear, who apparently moves his head very very violently while sleeping on the bus. Haha. He apologised profusely.

Love you dear. :D



tim: DEAR! SORRY...sorry sorry sorry (Apologising profusely)

that strong desire @
11:40 AM

From him.
She played the piano for me, well, for our first month! No exactly, but yes, she had the urge. It had such a beautiful ringing effect, like chimes. It is nice. I love it. I have a thing for girls their piano.
Well, it has already been late and its now roughly around 1am. Got awoken by xander cries. Not long ago, I hung up her phone because I was, one-third in dreamland, now I'm just awake. Kept hearing knocks on the wall, and then followed by xander crying. Lets not get our imagination run wild. Don't want to think the worst of what xander does best. Today is our first official monthsary, and the not so funny thing is, we didnt spend it together. I guess this is called giving space? Anyway, this being our first official monthsary, it is also her younger brother's birthday, and my mum's birthday. All on the same day! WhoohoO!

So, my day started out tired. As usual, I stayed up the night doing projects and work, that somehow I missed class this morning. Really, the work load and stuff.. and work... and oh well. Lets not give excuses for everything. By the time I finally dragged myself down the bed, it is already 2pm plus. Rushed out after reading the EARLY morning sms, and Email from work. I'm required to do what?.. Design, email, design and deliver? To Tai Keng Court?.. oh goodness. For the money that I would urgently need. Fine. I shall put up with this nonsense. Its not in my contract to deal with such business. Its 3pm when I reached school. Headed to Sketchup workshop which lasted till 630pm. Then went down to the office. Stayed there till 8pm, finished up all that I needed to do. Rushed back up to Sembawang.. Oh well. Superman is needed everywhere. By the time I reach, its 9plus. And everyone had eaten. All it mattered is that my mum had a goodtime. Oh well. Got home around 11plus. Played with Xander.. Well... told the details of the cute little baby and what he did to me, to my lovely girlfriend. So.. because I'm lazy, and because not everything is for everyone to know, especially his awesome cute-ness, I shall not type it out here. Talked to my beloved till... 12midnight, where I am already hardly awake.. And she played the piano. =) I was awake for that. Definately! Nothing sounded so sweet. Nothing in such a long time. And even that, the pieces before didnt even sound like anything. So dull, and sickening. Well.. chinese just didnt appeal to me. And there. here I am typing about what went on today. I missed her. Really. And we were both commited. I'm the pig. =) Commited. Hehehe. I dont want to say she's the pig... well, that because firstly its rude. And secondly, I dont want others to get the wrong idea. Love love, you know how much you meant to me. (For the faint-hearted, especially at this point of time, my apologies if I had offended you in any such manner with mush and honey.)

To my beloved,
Loves from tim.


ps. oh, the firing squad, there wasnt a compliment huh... and yes. we drank two bowls of tom yum soup EACH. with added chilli of course.

that strong desire @
12:55 AM

Happy Monthsary. Exactly one month ago, he sat down in front of the firing squad (aka my mom and dad) and asked them for permission to date me. (Yes, who does that anymore) After listening to all their objections, they finally agreed.

Thanks dear for enduring the firing squad.

I know this monthsary doesn't mean as much as the 18th one (yes we have two) but it does mean a lot to me that you asked them and you were willing to deal with their displeasure and all their comments.

Love you dear.

--

Two days ago, we went to Thai Express. He surprised me with an advance sunflower, which was later given to the manager at Marina Square for good service. Heh. I think half of them will end up there given the sheer volume of times we visit.

We've calculated that we've visited 8 branches already. 9 for him though.

And yes all we've eaten is tom yum soup. :D

Well mostly. I think there was once when we chose something else. Haha.

We each drank two bowls of tom yum soup. (It's a steamboat) And added extra chillies cos it wasn't shiok enough. Yes we're nuts.

that strong desire @
11:25 AM

Now to my dearest who would read this in the morning I'm sorry I couldnt type one long one out now for you..


sumarized..

seeing marriage, living together, unlimited travel, and... advance dreaming.

that strong desire @
3:21 AM


last we met..

some other times, i used to think about this friend I had. However, it does seemed like i've been thinking quite a lot about her these days. Probably because there's really nothing left, and it ended abruptly. I feel sad. Really sad that it had to turn out this way. I meant, we really used to be good friends, and because of one silly mistake, I had to lie, convince her that I shouldnt be her friend, because of the guilt which comes with it, and we had to abandon this friendship.
It was something that used to picked me up when I fell. She was someone who I knew I could depend on, without a doubt.

But now..? I can't even let the words come out. A simple conversation would be so pleasing.
I wanted to give her a call... but doing that.. won't that makes me an intruder?
I'm forcing myself back into her life? Why? I'm probably the jinx of the both of us. I've caused nothing but hurt to her.

it haunted me..

Of course I've said this many times before. But I didnt actually wanted to believe it.
I didn't actually ever turned my back, until now. When I no longer return to the place.
The place where we knew each other. The place where we would meet and try to talk.
I have left this place of ours. And.. I have left the place where I'm supposed to wait.
Sorry. As cliche as this may sound, even though the person would probably be too busy,
to see this dumb post.. "so, this is goodbye..."

the thought of walking out from the past is threatening.. it threatens my sanity.
It erased away what used to make me, me. It permits promises and memories I kept,
so dear, to slowly.. seep away.

I remembered you telling me, that in two years time, you'll marry.
I wish the best for you.. *I still do wedding photography* so dont forget me.
you'll probably do anyway. In your busy uni schedule.. God bless.

that strong desire @
1:48 AM


Oh man..

do you want to see my bleaming smile..? cresent.

(the boyfriend cant stop smiling after reading the previous post)

that strong desire @
12:33 AM

My boyfriend is the best. I will just summarise my thoughts that I've penned in a Microsoft Word document. Spending time at my desk allows me to think loads of thoughts, and the one that's constantly on my mind is,

My boyfriend is the best.

It's taken a lot out of me to say it, not because I don't wholeheartedly believe it, but because I'm not a fan of gushy mushy people. It's one thing for me to say it in private and another to loudly broadcast it over the Internet.

For my friends who are single and reading this, I urge you to try to put aside the feelings of "Fine, you got a good guy lah. No need to rub it in our faces". I say this because I've felt it many many times in the past year.

Please indulge me.

So you've probably read the post about how he's feeling guilty about snapping at me. Let me just clear up the air and state that it was a line or two that was spoken after going without sleep for at least 24 hours. This is so small on the list of bad boyfriend behaviour that it doesn't even count. I admit that I was a bit shocked and hurt by his tone (because he rarely ever speaks that way to me) but taking into account the sleep deficit, well, I'd be totally unreasonable if I didn't ignore it right?

He's the first guy I can shop with, the first guy who wholeheartedly champions my every idea (even bungee jumping - except I'm afraid of heights) and fancy, brings me to my favourite places even when he's tired just to cheer me up, endures bad tom yum and my complaining, comes down to meet me at my whim "I miss you", watches Grey's and enjoys it (because I asked him to), cooks for me and loads more stuff that I can't think of at this moment (cos I'm trying to write Math formulas as well)

No mind games, just pure, unadulterated love.

I love him.

that strong desire @
5:30 PM


Feeling Guilty.

For the first time in a long while. Simply due to my lack of understanding.
I treated my girlfriend less than what she deserved. I shouldn't have snapped at her.
And its no excuse to say that I did not have enough sleep or that I'm grouchy.
Even after my frustration, she still allowed me to rest and catch up on my sleep.
Truthfully, I'm very thankful that I've met her, and get to know her.
And of course I'm grateful. My dearest girlfriend. You've been nothing but Great.
Love, I know you wont be able to see it immediately as when I post this up,
and that you'll only probably see this after I've left for school,
I want to let the whole world know that you're the most wonderful girlfriend there is!
And by saying just that, its already an understatment. You're more than wonderful!
As cliche as this may sound, I totally feel like I'm the happiest man living.

Today started out from last morning, constructing the pin-hole camera, which did not have much success in taking the photo, it was beautifully constructed I must say, not as an arrogont person, but just taking pride in my work. Seemingly this structure was so good, not much light could go in, absolute no light leak, and thus, as well, under exposed. Whereas me, being muddleheaded, thinking that its the camera's problem, did not check the prints carefully, and casted the camera aside. The print was there, and as I've said, underexposed, thus needed a longer period of exposure. After which, I had drawing classes. Figure drawing, proportional drawing, and whatnots. I had among the rest, held my A standard for this lesson as well. Of course, only I was crazy enough to use pen when every other student, used drawing pencils. Bible studies at ABBS followed, we took our new found favourite route, which is yet to be fine-tuned. My brain decided to shut down about 45mins before the end of class. And the transistion between staying awake in that small compacted place was terrible. I looked over to her for comfort for a few times, but I doubt there's much she could do. It was torturous fighting back sleep. Knocked out on her shoulders on the bus back. Felt very bad again when my weight kind-of pushed her into, not a very comfortable position, against the armrest of the backseat. Sorry love.

When I got back to sembawang, started on my plaster cast for 3D. Yet to do its documentation though. Oh well.. Heck!
And looks like i'll hitting 36hours straight without sleep...

that strong desire @
4:01 AM

Art Director.




Today was surprisingly tiring. But we had fun.
Only remembered our quote of the day, "Hold! Stay!"
Pictures will be up soon.

Basically I wasnt the Photographer for this studio shoot.
I was, what my girlfriend would call it, having a day off.
So I was directing the shots. The poses. And the effects.
I brought two cloths which surprisingly made good backdrops.
The effects and the textures. All coming together as one.
I had the most fun infront of the camera with my dearest.

Should I art direct in future? Train to be one?
Argh. Feels inbuilt. But maybe I should stick to my dreams.
Though it may now look impractical as my skills are limited.

I got this tugging feeling all week long. That I should give up.
Give up all my plans and all my fantasy/ ideas of the future.
*Dont panic, dont worry.* I plan to give it up unto God.
Let him settle it. Let him rule our lives together.
Of course there's a reluctance in the initial parting of control.
What if the plans got ruined? What if he made us apart.
Well, then the next conclusion would be that,
He didnt need our permission to ruin the plans or separate us.
He could chasten us whether or not we give up our plans.

Hmm... just thinking about it.
Am I taking into my delusional control more than what God permitted me to?

Okay back to the photos. It will be uploaded in this post soon. SO STAND BY...



In the interim, Kim shall hijack this post. *waves*

Shall do a weekly recap, just in case we both forget what happened. My memory is slowly failing too. Monday I had dinner with my parents, cos he had to do work and because he felt guilty that he's taking me off their hands. Ha. Tues we went for class at Syed Alwi Road. Finally we found it! Was a little late though but never mind. Still rather enlightening and enriching. Dinner was 'on the go' with KFC and Pizza Hut's drumlets, which was later hijacked by me and eaten the next day. Haha.

Wednesday has been described here so I shan't add much to that. Hmmn. Thursday we met again, I went to meet him at City Hall since he ended a bit late to come find me (the bus ride from his office to mine is torturously long) and we had... tom yum again. Haha. I shall be nice to them and not mention what happened, anyway it's a small matter. The tom yum was more up to standard there. Heh. Made us happier. Friday... I endured a long bus ride to meet him at home cos he was not feeling well. Swollen eye and fever, both of which had disappeared by the time I reached. Yeah it took that long.

Saturday was the shoot, mentioned above. Heh. Still waiting for those pictures. :D We need to fill this up with many many pictures. Yesterday, we were planning to go home after church (his home not mine) so that he could do work, but decided to meet our photographer instead to get the pictures. Heh. So we wandered around Vivo after Tom Yum again. (Aside: Vivo City Thai Express: please stock more lemongrass. Thanks) I bought a dress! Heh. First offline purchase in like 3 months. Our photographer then showed up and we got our hands on the CDs. YES! (Man I sound like him now) We walked around some more and 'felt hungry for some HK food' and ended up at Kim Gary restaurant. Quite worth it! Finally we decided to go back. We reached, he started painting and I cried for 84 minutes thanks to Grey's. Sigh. Cabbed home and then realised halfway that his phone was still with me, so we turned around and tracked him down. haha.

Okay that's enough from me.

(Tim stepping in)
Taking back the mic..
I LOVE MY GIRLFRIEND! SHE'S THE BEST!

that strong desire @
1:57 AM

Tiff and Taff How often do we fight.. ?
Like never... hahahaha

that strong desire @
1:21 AM

Each to each. each night i sleep with the ease of mind knowing that its not just going to be a dream.
each morning i wake up to the beloved sound of the phonecalls and messaging.
each day i look forward to join hands in hands with the love of my life.
each week that goes by, we face our differences, which were few.
And each month, we celebrate the similarities which are we have long lost count.

I miss my dearest.

And so yesterday I slept at 6am. got up late. Guess it was about 12noon when i finally found my senses. Took my seat back over the position I slept in, and continued last night's work. Did this till 5pm. And proceeded to make a little breakfast/lunch for the journey to meet my girlfriend. Reach around 740pm plus. Watched her solve the maths questions and stuff. Then hitched a ride from her parents to ION @ orchard. Purpose? Icecream buffet. And darn! the queue was really long. Though no as long as the sentosa's express on Hari Raya. Nontheless, we abandon the idea and headed down to paragon, SoupSpoon! Yay. Her comfort food and celebration food. Here's to my Amazing and wonderful girlfriend whom I cherish from the bottom of my heart. Afterwards, after walking from ION to Paragon, we attempt one of our random-places-to-go. It titled 'From Orchard to Bugis' Well. didnt know how we thought of this, but last I remembered, we were on the bus to orchard, and she sort of suggested that we could walk. And as what the title suggests, we walked to bugis. =) It was short. The walk was surprising quickly over, and we're on the way back home. So, I sent her back to her door. (now that i've upgraded, no need to part at the gatehouse anymore) And made my way back home. So here. Here's to my beloved girlfriend.

Loves.
from Theron.

that strong desire @
3:54 AM

Response Actually its totally my fault to ask her to blade. Well, I guess i couldnt really be a good, nice and patient teacher. I must have probably pushed and rushed her too much. I feel bad for her injury. I HURT MY BELOVED!

okay. Just an after thought. I saw someone tonight who has about 80percent resemblance to my ex. Somehow, I feel bad. hmm. Well, I shouldnt have influence her to take up art and major in it. Art probably didnt do her any good. Oh well. She's just caught in my influence. I might have pity her though.

Can't help it though. Those who I'm close with, seemed to express themselves more with art. Haha. Okay enough for my self flattery. Time to think about girlfriend and forget about work and studies for abit now. Just 5-10mins to rest my eyes and think of her is enough to brighten up entire day. Even if it would be the worst day.

that strong desire @
12:20 AM

By request... I shall blog about what happened during this weekend. He says it's time I pen my thoughts about our outings so I shall.

Hmm. Perhaps a general round-up of the week would be good, just so both of us remember the events. Heh. Yes dear, this is because I know how your memory is. :D

Okay, so after the Sentosa outings, it was back to work. Tuesday was spent creating questions as per usual, and then I asked to leave early so we could go his church for bible study. Long story short, we couldn't find our way so we ended up getting off and having dinner. Meh. My memory fails me as to where we had dinner. OH! we went back to Toa Payoh to have dinner. I had Pepper Lunch while he had some hotplate thing that was probably more worth the money.

Wednesday I had dinner with my parents because he got called into work, which ended up to be a false alarm of sorts. But oh well. Time spent with the family is always good I guess. Feeling a little guilty that I don't have many dinners with them.

Thursday we went to BBQ express to use the vouchers that they earned during his birthday dinner. Well that was the plan, till we realised we could get two students' meals. :D Heh. I think Vincent is rather blur but it makes for good business sense cos they'll make money on returning customers. Heh.

Friday I had dinner before he came since I was 'let off' early and then he sent me home. We stopped off at Queensway to get me hyped up on blades (more about this later) and then went back home.

Okay now for the weekend, which is probably more exciting. Hah. During one of his photoshoots in the course of the week (Wednesday I think it was) he went to check out Skateline for rollerblades. It had been one of his goals to get me blades, so he went to see if there were any suitable for me. He passed me their website, and I suddenly got the urge to blade. Not that I can mind you. (I've got the cuts to prove it)

Friday's visit to Queensway was a bid to prolong this urge and keep the interest there. Saturday, after an hour's wait on his part (I was washing the cars with no time to keep) we trooped down to Upper Paya Lebar to check out the blades. With the staff's recommendations (they're super friendly! we approve!) we emerged a great deal poorer, but happy with our purchases. Pictures to come later on...

It was pretty late by the time we were done, but we still hopped on the bus to East Coast anyway to test out the blades and see if I was really "not that bad" as one of the staff commented. Dinner was done by the roadside, super "on the go". Heh. Then we strapped on the skates and me my protective gear and we were off. Well not quite. Due to the presence of slopes, I had to walk while he skated till we got to an area that was more beginner friendly. We then skated the length of East Coast for about two hours. I fell twice. It was almost 11 by the time we reached the bus stop so when the bus reached Bugis, we took two separate buses to go home.

This post is super long already leh. And we need pictures! Okay, so Sunday dawned bright and early. A bit too early for both of us though. Went to church early to get a refund. Waited for the dude for nearly an hour, while my cousins spotted him and proceeded to interrogate me... in a 'friendly curious' way.

After church we headed down to our favourite spot, Sentosa! We skated for a while till my ego got badly damaged (ie. I fell) then we proceeded to our spot in Tanjong to tan and wade in the sea. Later, the rollerblading saga continued with my pride getting hurt again. Heh. Quite a painful experience, although it was fun while I was upright and not getting acquainted with the ground.

Dinner was at Thai Express. Tom Yum soup was NOT up to our expectations and I wanted to complain. Heh. Such a Singaporean thing to do, but I was genuinely concerned about the standard. I don't want to have to evade this Thai Express! Anyway, he went to tell the staff about it so hopefully it'll be better next week.

Fell asleep on the long bus ride home. Woke up long enough to get off the bus, walk to our 'goodbye' spot and then get home, dump all the dirty clothes in the laundry and then curl up on my bed. Ha.

Thanks dear, for the blades and the company. :D Blading was definitely more fun (although painful) with you around and with my pretty blades. Heh. Love you.

that strong desire @
11:13 AM

work, study, sleep, bus-rides. Not enough time for girlfriend.
She not happy. =( Me also very sad. (act cute way of saying?)

that strong desire @
3:00 AM

Face the world with our guns blazing. You are who I need who I want and it is so hard to be without you.

Okay. Shall attempt to take a little breather from all that documentation. As much as I would just hoped for an average pass, I try so hard to As my modules. Its relatively NOT simple, then again, passing the subjects, is a breeze. Everything in a day's worth. Okay. *Trying to coherent* Taking a break now, typing on my laptop, thinking of all the nice wonderful things she'd done for me. Apparently, due to the perfectionist struggling to break-free inside me, I take absolute caution and carefulness in detailing the 3D documentation. I feel like I could build a tesseract using my braincells. Argh! What in the world. Anyway, as impatience as I may sound now, its all caffeine. I'm probably high now.

So then, Sunday as I vaguely recall in my lightheaded-ness, was almost too beautiful. The bottom-line was to get our tan. So basically we spent Saturday together in the afternoon, near evening, had a little cheesecake in the early morning. So we watched Greys. Had our icecream, and I sent her home. Reaching home I stayed up late to rush on some backdated projects till morning , in order to date my princess out. Fell asleep on the cold hard floor as usual, and woke up from my alarm. Tired, and not packed for the day. And the worst, I woke up with a flu to a Sunny Sunday Morning! I placed the drinks two 1.5litre of liquid into my bag, two sets of beach towels, two set of face towel, shampoo, Satsuma shower gel, etc.. etc.. Got the tent and groundsheet checked. And off I went to find her. (Here's alittle sensitive to my readers, so I wont state the details of Sunday 10am - 3pm.) When we reached Vivocity via bus, we needed to have lunch. She wanted chinese, well, the stalls at the foodcourt are either closed or lacking of food. Some famine hit it during the morning. AH! The interchange, it was packed with.. people! Tourists! ALL those foreigners. So the Sentosa Bus queue was jam packed...(insert) KFC lunch...(/insert) We decided to get our real edible cheesecake, and take the Sentose express. She needed to get the Islander Card, and besides, as she stated, its worth it comparing to the amount of time we'll be going to our spot. =) Heh. We queued the inhuman-human line, filled with nonsense, just for me to purchase my 3bucks worth of entry fee. Which by the way was short of 10cents, that the cashier waved off. Thank you God for you loving, kind mercies. Anyway, the sentosa beach tram does not operate on Hari Raya. (We will come to our conclusion about this later in the post) We trotted down to Tanjong, where there's supposed to be a beach party at the Shack, but we did avoided it anyhow. Set-up our tent, and took in the sea and sand. Didnt get friendly with the waves this time round beacuse of two reason, First, the beach was dirtied! TERRIBLE! These people disgust me! and for the Second reason, I will not say here =). Had a little tan before the Sun was blocked by the clouds. It was a reasonable mild tan. Nightcame, and we were bothered by lunatic french kids. Of course, my lovely girlfriend had to bear with my temper and voice when I had to shout. In the late night, after the cheescake, we found a frisbee ( or frisby) and played with it a little while. Went back to the bus interchange, not to mention that I got the both of us lost on the way. Made a wrong turn and had to climb a hill. So we backtracked and got on our way. Fastforward, we boarded to Sentosa Bus, alighted at HarbourFront Businterchange, and bus-ed back. I sent her home, we talked all the way about GAMES, and afterwards i took two other buses back. By the time I reached home, I was beat, and she halfawake.
The next day, I woke up once again by my most beautiful girlfriend, Kim. As I'd asked her to wake me as a favor. I had to do the cooking for the both of us. Planned out the meals of the day. I was making our lunch. Made my way via Mrt and 67 to her place. Exactly at 9am as promised. Dropped my phone accidently before actually seeinge her.. Missed the bus. So we decided to have breakfast. Breakfast was supposedly our pancakes at Macdonalds (which is NOT very nice compared to the ones she makes, yet to save her the trouble, Mac will do just fine), we had duckrice from the coffeeshop near by because we wanted the most out of the Sun. Ta-bao our duckrice, and was on our way to Vivo. She bought of me an Islander Card!! Oh How I love Her! Haha. As cliche as this may sound that its the thought that counts, she made the action count even more! Heh. Well, feeling responsible, and trying to let her save more in a month. I suggested to pay her back 3bucks for every time we re-enter Sentosa, until I paid the full cost of the Card. Oh did I forget to mention that after that, its all free? Along with that, the convenience is great and the discounts are.. considerable. We got to our 'never-occupied-other-than-us' spot, and set-up the tent. Immediately we laid down the groundsheet and played a little Frisbee which we gain the night before. It was FUN! With the capital F, U and N. haha. Probably overrating the experience. We got down to the tanning part. Laid on our back with glasscups filled with chilled green tea beside us.. we feel in and out of sleep. At least I did. So to make it more conducive, we played cards. The sun was really strong that day. I was practically burned, and learnt how to play chocolate at the same time. Haha. Proud of my ability to learn fast, though at times I enjoy acting blur to let the world go by me. Tanned... tanned... And its night. my memories here is a little fuzzy. Guess she shall fill in this section for me. =) Heh.. pushing the responsibility. Hehe.

bad bad burn. but.. we like! =D haha. (I took an hour to type this post.. hmm..)


Kim's turn:

Hmmn. Right, I shall fulfill my duty and write about the evening part. We got chased away from our spot by the beach patrol and ominous drops of rain. We did manage to make it to and from the Southernmost Point before it rained though. That bridge was super rickety with annoying people who just stopped in the middle of nowhere to take a picture. Yes, we know it's a new experience for you, but can't you see the human traffic on both sides of the very narrow and rickety bridge?

Then we tested God's patience by walking back to the terminal oh-so-slowly. Actually, it was pretty fast lah; we were slowed down by the stuff we were carrying (which by the way we're slowly cutting down by half - you should have seen our stuff on previous occasions) And our walking speed is generally pretty fast I think. Anyway. We then took the Sentosa Express back and kiasu-ly wanted to stand near the door so we'd be the first out. It worked in theory, except the doors opened on the other side instead. Heh.

We had dinner at (where else?) Thai Express, where we sat under the aircon vent. One bowl of Tom Yum seafood soup and rice and two glasses of water later, I was freezing, so I went outside while he handled the bill. Dunno why it took so long.

We then boarded the bus to go home and spent the entire bus ride conked out. I was actually sleeping on his shoulder, but by the end of it I was awake and he was sleeping. Being roasted by the sun is hard work. Heh. So he sent me to my guardhouse, and then he went home, and fell asleep again on the bus ride. Eh. He's comfortable k. :D

Oh... apparently I'm not that burnt. Actually my burn rate is probably like 10%. Thank God. I also don't know how it happens. *runs away from accusing stares* But well, it's still itchy if it helps. Heh. And yay, I'm a nice dark shade!

Shall pass him aloe vera gel and moisturiser to make his sunburn better. :D Already packed for him, just waiting to be delivered.

I'm amused by his bragging about the Islander card. He forgot to mention it allows us to skip super long queues (that we experienced on both Sunday and Monday and that we saw Daffy at! :D) and go right in. I think that's worth the money already.

Heh. Okay. Got a sudden urge to go roller-blading. Must be his influence. Time to go to work.

that strong desire @
4:36 AM


Zonk-ing out.

Guess what.
I'm eating honey sunflower kernels,
drinking my third concentrated cup of 'Super' roast coffee with tea (Teh Tarik),
and working on my dumb Egg Project at 3 am in the morning.

Oh. on the side note. I'm pretty much happy.
Haha. This means I get to see her later! YAY..
Equalvalent work done, to amount half the amount of time,
in order to cut out a portion of the required for leisure.

Frankly speaking. I've completely no Idea what I'm saying.

that strong desire @
3:22 AM

Random Pictures' is BACK!




COLOUR SPLASH!

Grid Green
Cute Teal
Light Olive
Lipstick Purple
Fiesta Red
Charcoal Grey
Yellow Ochre
Grass Green
Burgundy Brown
Brick Red
Lavender Blue

that strong desire @
11:37 AM


dearest.

that strong desire @
11:32 AM

SENTOSA is CLEAR of RAIN

that strong desire @
11:32 PM

mushiness alert x2 Disclaimer: If you're recently out of love, or unhappily single etc. please skip this entry... er and a lot more on this blog. The things that I will write here are not fiction, they are fact, but I wouldn't want to be rubbing salt into anyone's open wound, so please... close it now.

So we've been official for like 9 days now. I say official because he wanted to do the old-fashioned thing and ask my parents for permission to date me. (who does that nowadays anyway? He's definitely the oldest 18 year old I've ever met) So we sat at the club's alfresco dining and my mom chatted with him.

I'd prepared him in advance, so he knew that he had to prepare a speech. I think I was more nervous than him, something that was evidenced in my snarfling bouts of almost-laughter and compulsive eating of peanuts.

The answer was a far cry from the initial resistance. Even though it wasn't exactly a resounding "YES!" at least it was a "let's see how you do". Well. That was enough to make him very very happy. Haha. Although it kinda only sank in a couple of hours ago.

Dear you need to work on your response time. :D

I've recently been working till 8, and he's made the effort (despite all his deadlines) to come down and see me and have dinner with me. Thanks dear. :D Also I get little gifts like apple, juice (no not apple juice - apple and juice) and dinner. Yay. Even if it means about two hours' journey home (although by cab or driving it's supposedly 20 minutes) for him. Love him.

Yesterday was weird. He got this idea to do something for modeling and 3D and I ended up dating this blank face dude with lines across his face. He had no expression for an hour. Longest hour of my life. After about half of it, you start to forget the original face. Like one of those mimes, although they were way more expressive than he was.

I was very glad when he took it off. Try it and tell me you don't think it's weird.

I'm randomly spouting nonsense as I always do. At work now and brain is not really functioning. Sleepy leh.

So more sweet dates coming up. Tonight's our monthsary but well, his family has other plans. So I'll be joining them instead. And then we'll see what else he has planned. Brought grey's just in case. Heh. Sunday'll be Sentosa (again! This is the third time already!) and maybe Monday too. That's a toss up between Escape, East Coast and Sentosa. Haha.

All right. Time to instructional design.

that strong desire @
12:00 PM


Unwanted Closing

Okay. I shall blog abit now before I start on my A's modeling. Heh.
I am facinated by my fascinating girlfriend. Truly, no one is every so exciting.
I'm excited to see her, I'm excited to be with her, and I'm EXCITED when i'm with her.
She so lovely, I have no idea how to start. Sounds like i'm bragging too much though.
But I feel that I haven't treat her well recently. Have been neglecting her for school.
Thank goodness that the approval from the parents came pretty and not as messy.
Though we all know its not really a YES, but more of a 'Lets see how you'll do'.
She wrote to me! Hehe. happy.
and..
What photoshop abilities?!

that strong desire @
1:32 AM

2D assessment done. And so for the 2D assessment.
I have a Grade A. heh.. but must be humble right?
Okay, so the comments that my lecturer had me take down were;
His strengths are as stated,
He know how to draw, has essentially good drawing skills.
Painting Skills is also very good. No problem in Exploration.
Creative in elements of face manipulation.

And his weaknesses,
Lack of time management, need to be careful and improve in this area.

Marks has been pulled down due to incomplete colour chart. (Monochromatic Greys)


Here's the breakdown,
Basic requirements of the brief fulfilled and sketchbook maintained (20%) - B (12-13)
Technical Skills (25%) - A (18-25)
Medium experimentation and testing of ideas (25%) - A (18-25)
Relevant and reflective visual and contextual research (20%) - A (14-20)
Aesthetic sensibility (10%) - B (6)
Conclusion...
Summary Indicative Grade & Percentage Point - A (70-100)

that strong desire @
7:38 PM

In reply to the posts below:

I wish I could effortlessly sleep through the night without waking up at weird times. I think my body clock is still programmed to wake up at 7.30 every morning and it's confused to why I can wake up later nowadays. Anyway last night someone barged into my room, probably my aunt or what. Bleah.

But can't complain. Had sufficient sleep.

Xander's adorable. :D And heh, is it selfish for me to be secretly happy that you can't eat Thai Express with anyone else? Especially the steamboat thing, which they should totally have in more outlets man. Well I have to say that the overall experience is better when dining with you and ordering our "usual". :D

4 more days my love. To our monthsary and to the end of assessments! :D

that strong desire @
10:26 AM


Nice to know

Sometimes its nice to know that my girlfriend is sleeping peacefully and soundly.
Probably hoped that her mood will be better than the bad times of sleepless nights.
No one using the toilet at weird hours in the morning.. disturbing her sleep.

Well.. i haven't sleep a wink. Lets just hope I get the A1 for this assessment.
All thanks for her patience, help and support she've provided me these two days.

that strong desire @
5:17 AM


The Grouchy Emperor.

Hmm.. Waiting for my love to fill in the spaces for comments. Heh.

Having Thai Express with anyone else besides you, just feels so weird.
I'm totally not comfortable with the idea, much less enjoy the food.
And.. I think I already got hooked up by Grey's. Influencial girlfriend..
Hehe. Thank you for recommending it love. Haha.
I'll have LOADs of free time next week. Looking forward till then. =)

*edit* Kim - added in the comments. Xander's adorable, even when he's making "I'm super uncomfortable" faces.

that strong desire @
1:15 AM

ideas and perspective. "Looks like this is goodbye."
Ever since i went back to the airport, that scene kept flashing back into my mind.
Could totally narate it out now.

One of the coldest January night. Walking along the hanging gardens of Changi Terminal 3, I hanged my head low, not expecting things to get any better. And probably didnt expect things to get worst. Looks like it changes alot of things. I found myself a comfortable plastic seat near berth 3. It was already near 2030hrs. My eyes drifted to the large rotating fan spinning innocently and ambigious at the corner, my eyes darted to any bright coloured person. Hopes of expecting her earlier, failed to keep my heart pace slow. So that we are able to say our last goodbyes before the crowd arrives. However this was not meant to be. She's the crowd person, and nothing I can do to stop her friends from being with her. That's just way too selfish. But what am I? A selfish human being. She's just a friend. Used to be such a goodfriend, till I've failed in the friendship which of course I longed for. That is not meant to be as well, as long as she still sees me as one who commited such a crime, who is there to change anything? I probably understand how she might actually feel. Of course I couldn't explain it then. If someone who did what I did to me, I would have told that person to stay away, 'you' have caused enough hurt to me. If 'you' are out of my life, stay out! I didnt know how to approach her with this prediction coming back over and over again. So as I was saying, she came with the crowd, and I had to queue up.. I promised not to cry infront of her, and that is probably the last promise I had not broke. Even if its me, knowing what I had done then, I couldn't forgive myself till now, how then am I able to expect you to forgive me? Am I silly or nonsensical. Well, it is fine. Perfectly fine if you were to forget me ( I know this is really not necessary for me to post or even say) its like kicking up the dust again. And then again, I'm grobbling up your feet to for forgiveness when you've already given so many chances.
I shall explain my actions for a year back. Just before you left again, I made the decision to make things easier for you. ( Of course you would think I'm just making this up now, but whatever, think what you want to. I just need to get this off my chest after so long.) It clearly seemed as though even when you can verbally say you have forgiven me, we both know that things cannot be back the same again. Why should I make things difficult for you again? Why should I try to pull you back into my life when I was still entangled with her then? I felt the critizism from you. I felt the disappointment. And I was a coward, covering my fear of rejection by rejection the friendship again. You'll probably be sick and tired of this agonising and painful cycle, or you probably gotten numb the the hot-cold treatment. I couldnt face you if you are infact actually very disappointed. I made up the dumb arguement. Stage the fight. And thus breaking the friendship because I wanted to save myself.

Well, just thought that you should know about this. Not really asking for forgiveness or anything close. FYI only.
Don't bother to contact me. I might probably hurt your feelings again after such a long period.
I hope you're still as happy as you used to be. Carefree.
You're not really blogging much, so I really can't tell.
God bless, my friend.

that strong desire @
3:44 AM


Modelling

that strong desire @
3:37 AM


Photoshop Class.

This is a waste of time. so... well. when everyone is learning what a cursor tool is for..
I'm doing this. (Quote) Boys.. hai.. (Unquote)

that strong desire @
2:55 AM


2D painting.

that strong desire @
2:44 AM

We are official. For 2 days and counting.

that strong desire @
10:33 AM

i love to remember you i feel happy. remembering the days when you're beside me.
Sitting on the arm-rest of my chair. The many little surprises.
The wonderful bear. The beautifully decorated cup..
the countless messages to put me to sleep, and
the many calls in the morning. I am truly grateful for you.
Appreciating every single detail you've provided me with.
Every support you gave me.
Even if I failed to get the approval tomorrow.
I know that no matter what, you are there.
And for this. I love you deeply.

thank you dearest. thank you for standing by me. =D

that strong desire @
10:09 PM

Okay, first of all I must clarify that although I do exhibit stalker-like behaviour in calling people multiple times, the one mentioned below was because he was on the train and I didn't want him to miss his stop and end up in like City Hall with no way to go home.

Yes. So i'm not THAT stalkerish. Haha.

Dear,
Cheer up. Don't worry, I'm not going anywhere. :D Focus on schoolwork first k. That's the main priority for you now.

that strong desire @
2:50 PM


Change and meanings.

I realised how much we have grown to be like each other. Rubbing off our characteristic, and enjoying how we reflect ourselves off the each other. So many times we are entertained by our antiquity.

that strong desire @
1:26 AM


Change and meanings.

that strong desire @
1:26 AM


The patience we both need.

For Sunday.

My beloved is very nice to me.
Actually I'm very touch,
she called me several times to make sure I am back home safely.
To those who thinks that she's a nuisance, you are so wrong.
Anyway, I was partially unconscious from all the activity done earlier.
We had our 'soon-to-be' usual picnic outing at our favourite spot;
Tanjong Beach =)

Tried to conquer my phobia against swimming.
Ate in the slight drizzle..
Watched the sun go down.
Ate the VERY lovely pancakes!
And watched "She's all that"
=)

She's nice. We can be good friends! Heh.

Anyway, My apologies for the bad mood today.
I'm not really prepared for the burdens to shoulder..
Don't leave me. I need you the most now.
I may be harsh and preoccupied,
but remember you are always on my mind.

Thank you for standing beside me all these while.
Thank you kim.

that strong desire @
12:00 AM

what the heck. This is not good. I'm sitting here for like 15 minutes and I already feel lost and confused. Perhaps it's my low intellect, perhaps it's the bad English that I'm forced to deal with. Whatever it is. I am not happy.

that strong desire @
1:26 PM

to remember. I know that this is quite long overdue. But i finally found the time admist my hectic schedule to type this down. On top of all this, even when i'm at my busiest, and being a totaly wreck from many sleepless nights, my beloved writes to me. In nice proper english, which also made me feel like i'm reading it in those movies where the words and language fits in almost perfectly to convey such a beautiful message. As beautiful as she is.

On the eve of my 18th birthday, I guess i would never be able to spend it any better than that of this year. Its great, and beyond expectations. Well, i only expected to spend it alone with Jack & Jill potato-chips and a downloaded movie. So anything more than that is already a blessing and undeserving treatment. Initial plan was orchestrated by my love, Kimberly, who pain stakingly slogged though many nights, even when she is working, to think and plan out a good surprise. She even managed to have me hire her to be my personal entertainer for the few days my contract, with her, stands. Then apparently, she wasn't the only one planning things. Empress dowager also has plans for me. And she contacted her. Kim has now to fit her plan revolving around my mum's. Personally, i feel that they both didn't mind ganging up to make my day a very special one.

Days before the eve, I was told by my love that she will plan out everything in a form of a instructional letter. All of which I still kept very safe from view, moth or rust, or even air of which contiminates the very environment which some of us had lived in all our life. Then the day before, the story changed. And I guess I still wanted to meet her, so i decided to be there for her during lunch. Had a little walk down to novena square 2 and have Burger-King for lunch. I always really feel bad when she spends for me. Especially when i'm eating off her so often.. So it was suggested that we have Burger-King. Before my whopper, i was already told to read a love/birthday note telling me many many touching things and encouragements I really needed at that time. She also reads my mind way before this actually happened. AND TA Da, she gave me the gift that she personally did. She painted me something so nice, at first I couldn't bear to use it.

Because she told me that she couldn't spend the night as planned, I was despondent. I took a long bus ride home, and slept till its time for the interview. Guess my mood was so affected, i couldnt even wake up on time and had to postphone the meeting to the next week. I was grouchy. This was about 5-6 pm, and my mum, woke me up by telling me that Kim's on the line. Which she actually is, because I asked her to call me when its time. She did, she did, but I didnt hear a thing. Was totally deep in sleep (didn't even had a wink the night before). Still feeling sad and disappointed managed to message my love that i'm okay, fine and happy. We reached Northpoint, and headed downstairs to this korean BBQ restaurant. No mood, no mood. I only want her! And I messaged her... Out of the blue, TA DA!! She's there beside me, and then she walked over to sit right infront of me. Inbetween us is just the menu, of which I rather throw away, and just grab to hug her tight. Oh well, I didnt.

Had our wholesome dinner or meat, and we had the cake cutting tradition. I had the manager and assisstant manager to sing for me. Haha.

Dinner and cake was over, made a speech, took a little walk, send Kim home, had our little private time. And I'm off to home..


*shall type about my birthday another day. Tired and sleepy now*

that strong desire @
1:59 PM

TTDL She makes me very happy.
And i don't deny she is lovely.

Hoho. need to statedown the list now.

A1 Sketch of female by wednesday.
3D presentation board by wednesday.
Grey Matters presentation of sketchbook by thursday.
Photoshop and contemporary & contextual studies project by friday.
Painting of 2D by next week monday.
Documentation & research of modeling and
Drawing of 16 settings by next week tuesday.

thursday 3rd sept, nationaly library, 1040am.
tanning, drinking, picnic, on sunday.
Creative writing by 11sept.

that strong desire @
5:35 PM

I want to blog about what happened on yesterday.
But, sorry, i'm sorry i cant find the time now.
Heh.

that strong desire @
12:21 PM

Already unforgettable birthday eve.




Thanks Kim, and mum for planning this out.

The people in cahoots.
Firstly, I didnt had enough sleep and it was terrible that my egg project failed big time. The most dramatic egg award goes to me. Anyway, lets take a minute or two to mourn for humpy dumpy. Though this time it was clearly my fault which cost him his life. poor poor him. Oh well.

Then as I was told yesterday that I can't spend the night with my love today, as were initially planned by her, I was despondent. Purely upset and tensed..

-To be continued-
have projects and paintings to do. Though I will let some of the pictures talk.
These are of the eve..

that strong desire @
1:05 AM

Tea love

that strong desire @
6:46 AM


i'm prepared

The thing about celebrations and events,
most of what I ever attended, or went to,
isnt mine. I probably don't have any celebration.
And like all other years. I'm prepared this year.
Jack and jill potato-chips..
I don't wish to bother anyone.

Don't really have much good memories especially on this day.
either i'm all alone, can't remember, or crying. (that's because i was too young then.)

Though i'm totally in love with my girlfriend,
its okay if nothing works out right.
Don't have to do so much especially when you're busy.
All I want is you. Even if its having J&J chips, or at Macdonald's.
I don't mind. =) I have it covered if there's anything.

Time to remove the blankets. hehe.
And to cuddle to sleep.

Its been awhile since i actually really sleep.
Last night was incredible.
Didnt even know how I managed to stay awake till now.
The last time I had this endurance was about a year ago.
No. Probably two. Who cared anyway.
Its past and its over.
Ohh.. tired..

that strong desire @
6:37 AM

Random Pictures.

that strong desire @
12:49 AM

shhh. I'm bubbling over with excitement. Two more days and all will be revealed.
If you were hoping for a hint of things to come, sorry you got the wrong person. I can keep secrets... although all the excitement's building up and gonna burst soon.
I shall declare to the world now that it will be the awesomest thing ever.
Hmmn. I think I will kill my own market. Next year how?

Eh. I think I sound like him now. Sheesh. Two more days!

He says I sound more excited than him. Of course. I know what's in store what. :D

that strong desire @
12:17 PM

She waited for me yesterday for so long.
I am very fortunate to have met her,
and to have her as, my future.
Never thought that I would ever be accepted again,
especially from the person that i will like,
but this case, is exceptionally different.
I feel happy and contented. (i can die happily now)
No. Wait. We still got a family to make!

Goodmorning my love.

that strong desire @
8:06 AM

another broken promise.
Apparently some emotional wave swept over. And, I feel pathetic. The last time I felt like this was when I had to regret everything I had done, because there just wasn't any more time left. There wasn't anymore to make memories of. Of course this had tidings with the recent years. All those promises I'd made to my dog. Who was there when I needed someone the most, or when no one was there for me. (Before I met Kim) And now, how can I leave him out in the cold? I have school, work, and many friends, but he only has me. If I were to complain that anything is not fair. That complain would mean NOTHING, compared to what he has to say. What have I done? Everyday, I wake up, just took him as a object. Never really treasured him as how I would when I was alone. So much time for him. With Xander and the new baby coming. He doesnt even have any stand or attention left. He was there first, and all we did was scold him, brush him off, throw him aside, feed him minimal, didn't even walk him, talk to him, play with him. What kind of freaking useless owner am I? What was the exact things I said and promised to my parents before we first brought him home?

"I will take care of him, until old. I will not neglect him and play with him before I play with my toys." -7 years ago.

Now.. i am ashamed.

that strong desire @
11:44 PM


2 months... or two years?

Two months have flown by... well, actually plodded by, slowly, agonisingly and excruciatingly. Some days we see the signs and we know that God wants us to be together, other days, we wallow in a pool of insecurity and inferiority.

It feels like we've been together for much longer, perhaps it's because we spend nearly every day together, and those that we don't we try to keep some form of contact between us or perhaps because in this relationship, the odds have piled up relatively quickly.

At least we know that there are some who support the relationship and that list is slowly growing longer by the day. Thank you, all of you.

Anyway, enough of my melancholic musings. (sorry liked the alliteration) I'm sure you all are dying to know how we spent our 2nd month. (For those of you who can't be bothered, well what kind of friends are you!?! Haha) He ended at 4pm and came to meet me at our workplace at one of our 'meeting places'. We have several, apparently. The plan was to watch a movie at 6.40 (I end work at 6) and then have dinner... Well actually I sort of made up my own plan even though he was supposed to organise. Heh.

We cabbed down and managed to snag couple seats (what's the point of being a couple if you don't abuse this privilege?) at the third row from the back and watched our show in 3D. First time for both of us to watch a show in the cinema in 3D. Good show. He approves, he says. Haha. The show was Up, in case you wanted to know.

After that, we proceeded to Thai Express. Apparently I'm getting him hooked onto tom yum soup and khao (rice). We walked to the entrance only to find that the queue line said that they were closed for the day. We checked our watches in puzzlement (okay we checked our phones) and then proceeded to ask the staff if it was really closed. They waved us in, and I adjusted the sign so more customers would enter.

Dinner was good as usual, as we subjected ourselves to hot yet tasty torture of tom yum. We had extra servings of rice to try and combat the spiciness. During that time we were also speculating: Who should we give the sunflower to? We nearly gave it to a guy! In the end we gave it to the girl who had shown us to our seats and gave us back our change. She looked delighted, but was politely curious to know why we didn't want it. Well, we tried to tell her in incomprehensible English and weird garbled sounds, but she didn't understand! She took it though.

We then went in search of Gelare. How come no one told me they moved? Not fair. *throws tantrum* Anyway. I was in desperate need of ice-cream and so we went to McDonald's instead. Sitting in front of MacDonald House (pure coincidence, though it's funny now I think of it), we finished the cones and then he sent me home.

Well, fine that wasn't very exciting. It's kinda hard to keep doing exciting things when you work till 6 you know. Anyway, I liked it and that's all that's important. Ha.

Happy 2nd monthsary dear. To many more months and years ahead. Love you.

that strong desire @
4:36 PM


3 days ago.

that strong desire @
2:49 PM


Oh can I move in?

dumb photoshop exercise.. this was what i was doing when the lecturer was nagging about what is the layers, selection tool, magic wand[?!]

Somethings are Not meant to be said. However,
it seemed that, I cant hold any secrets from her.

All my past histories, present ambitions, and future fantasies,
she took it, like its important to her too. Maybe. But that's how I feel.

School has been tough and tiring for us students.
A much bigger leap to understand what that shouldnt be understood.
Theories after theories of either proven or unproved art works and critics.
Many of the artists and the time the work was painted.
Questioning the unquestionable.

How to do research like this?

Should be a piece of cake based on my background.
But there's just not enough inputs for the outputs I'd expected.
Don't have enough time.
I want to spend my time with her, of course.
But then how about my school work?
And now, dying, how am I to work?

I can't do without her. I must venture out and add her in.
The most probable solution is to find the same job.
See! Smart huh.
But. that's abit off tangent.

Different specialisation.
Different fields of expertises.

But. Still. I love her anyway. And will try in any way, to find time.
to be with her.. or die trying.

that strong desire @
1:29 AM

I love her. I'm not going back on my decision.

Mann. i got a sudden fondness for sunflowers. HAHAH
think i'm abit psychotic.

that strong desire @
12:45 AM

Minimising confusion. I have added myself as an author on your blog, so now we don't have to sign off anymore. :D heh. Although I realise it doesn't show up on the blog. Oh well. Now you have the added pleasure of seeing my name on any new post I write on your blog. Haha. Or something.

that strong desire @
10:53 AM

Why make two people happy when... three or more can be happier?

So I got another sunflower yesterday, a marker to indicate two months have passed. "A sunflower for every month" he says. And then I gave it away.

Yes. I know most of you reading this (although I have no idea how many actually do) would think I'm crazy. Why would I give a perfectly pretty flower away to someone else, especially when it's a stranger?

I'd like to clarify that I'm not being ungrateful nor do I have any problems with sunflowers that I feel the need to give it away. I appreciate the gift, I truly do.

My rationale is that my happiness is not premised solely on the receiving and keeping of the flower. Yes I got a flower and I'm very happy, and then what? The flower WILL die in a few days no matter how earnestly I try to keep it alive. I suppose I could dry them but experiments of that nature have only truly succeeded with one bouquet, which will be in the trash come 4th Sept.

So my logic is, why make one person happy when I can make 2 happy? So I give my flower away in order to brighten someone else's day and make them just that much happier.

Thank you dear, for the flower, and getting the rationale behind it.

-kim

that strong desire @
11:36 AM

what kind of father are you?! .. And i did nothing to prevent it?!
DID nothing to protect her.
Damn it.

that strong desire @
12:49 AM